Carson would walk up behind me, hug me tightly and kiss me, just like he did when we was actually a couple. But there came complications with this "friendly" relationship, he was still dating Macey.
After the trip I came home and attempted to sleep. I knew that wasn't going to happened I had to much on my mind. Is he going to dump Macey for me? Will our friendship be anymore? Thoughts randomly blown through my head as fast as lightening. I needed to tell Macey, my heart was weary and my mind was ashamed from everything that had happened those past couple of days.
I knew what it felt like to be cheated on, I didn't want her to feel like that too. No one should ever feel like that. I told her through text, I got her number earlier in mine and Carson's relationship. She tried to warn me that he was a cheater, they dated before Carson and I got together, he cheated on her just like he did me. But I didn't believe her, I was sure she was just trying to get me to leave him so she could have him all to herself. She wasn't lying.
She was furious with me, not with Carson. She didn't believe me, he told her that nothing I said was true. Macey and Carson started teasing me, calling me names like Bitch, slut, whore, but no one except for us 3 knew about what all they said.
We broke up in Feburary, the "Friends with benefits" stuff happened in March, and they continued to tease me, without thought of quitting. They was making my life a living hell. I already gave up on love, how could anyone love someone that was a bitch, slut, whore, and a bad kisser.
They finally gave up in April after school ended and Carson graduated. Thank God. I couldn't handle anymore torment about a mistake Carson and I had made. I was officially destroyed at this point. I gave up on my search for my true love. "No one wants me and no one will ever want me." I thought depressingly to myself. I would cry for hours without telling anyone about my situation, knowing if I did it would just get worse even though it had already ended.
That was the end of Carson and Keilah. Everything we had was down the drain and would never surface ever again. I pushed on, feeling lonely and worthless.
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Authors Note:
Enough drama for your guys? It was a lot more dramatic in real life, trust me. Votes? Comments? Anything? The next part is like my best friends book, Not A Love Story by cowgirloffaith87, but in my perspective. Thanks for continuing reading!☺
