Thousands of Unspoken Words

I'm already tired

I'm tired of life
I'm tired of the things that make me sane at the same time insane
I'm tired of waking up
I'm tired of seeing a new day that isn't for me
I'm tired of cutting my wrist
I'm tired of making myself bleed when no one is going to notice it
I'm tired of how my brain works
I'm tired of having the same thought of dying when I couldn't kill myself

I'm tired of my eyes
I'm tired of seeing You walk away ,
Cause I know you think I would still wait for you ...even though you will not do the same for me
I'm tired of my nose
I'm tired of breathing the same air as You
Cause I know I was never fit for it
I'm tired of my ears
I'm tired of hearing lies from others and from myself
'Cause hearing them makes my mind more broken
I'm tired of my lips
I'm tired of smiling when all I wanted is to cry
Even though crying is so useless
I'm tired of my tongue
I'm tired of telling lies that fed up by humans
Cause I know they believe in my own Disgusting words

I'm tired of my shoulders
I'm tired of lending them when no one is willing to keep me from crying
Cause I know when I'm in need of using a shoulder to cry ...no one will be there to do so
I'm tired of my hands
I'm tired of holding your hands when no one is going to hold my hand and keep me safe
Cause I know these hands ...these very hands are very dirty for your liking

I'm tired of my heart
I'm tired of making it work all over and hopelessly waiting to take a break
Cause I know how fragile my heart is and yet it is already been played all over

I'm tired of my legs
I'm tired of running away from reality
Cause I know that no matter how I dream about those silly fantasy reality will always chase after me

I'm tired of everything, actually
I'm tired of being tired
I'm tired of being happy
Sad
Angry
Depress
I'm tired
And hell I can't even rest
I'm tired
..just too tired

So please
Just please
I'm already tired
Just let me rest
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Eternally
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