Feelings Suck

Chapter 1: First day of school

So it was the beginning of my junior year and I was so happy that I got to see my friends once again. Everyone changed big time. There were more freshman than usual. And where my hangout was, they seemed to sit on it. So of course, me being the kind, shy, passionate, but asshole type of guy told them to 'get off'. Of course they listened, they're freshman, but by to my surprise very big freshman.

So after my friends and I reconciled of how our Summer's went, the bell for 1st period rang. I had A-wing. When I went to that class, it said 'English 12 honors'. I thought to myself, why would I have an English 12 class? I requested for an English 11 honors class. So I went in and I saw all the students in there and they were so much taller than I was given the fact that they were seniors. In my perspective, I wanted out of this class because I didn't want to have a junior class when I was a senior next year.

So when the bell for first period ended, it was break. So I went straight to the counsellors office to change my schedule. I was anxious to see what English class I was to be put into. And surprise surprise, they put me in an English 11 AP (Advance placement) class. I was shocked, scared, and excited to see how that challenge was.

Carrying on after the 15 min break, was my second class which was fckn geometry. ugh that class was so hella boring and given the FACT my teacher hated my guts for no apparent reason made it worst. i didn't give any fucks for that class and i purposely failed because she gave me an F for every assignment so i gave her hell. one hour and 30 mins of that class was soooo draining. lunch was well needed with the girls. lunch was hella good because we always bribe the school aides to let us off campus to grab food and we always get them something hahah so easily fooled.

So after lunch was my final class of the day which was spanish baby ugh i loved that class also, two of my girlies were there with me <3 anyways, no need to explain jack shit what went on in there because we legit just fucked around as usual of what two girls a gay boy would do.

The next day, it was 456 (Block schedule) and my 4th was chemistry. There was a lot of people in there. Some people I knew, some I didn't. There was one person who got my attention and it was Nathaniel. I don't why, but he caught my attention. I was friends with him since 9th grade. He was kinda a quiet guy even though he dated my friend, a loud bitch.

During the rest of the day, it was kinda boring cause the classes that I have were pretty easy, except for math. I hate math, I mean who doesn't. But for some odd reason, he popped into my head. I don't know why, even thought I'm in a relationship, he just sorta popped in. And I couldn't stop thinking about him. So of course my way of losing feelings for someone is to drink it out. So I went to a party with my friends and got so fckn dead trashed I mean fuck I'm surprised I didn't die.

The next day for school, my friends were surprised that I came to school. I mean why should they be surprised, I've came to school worse than that lots of times. Then they asked me, "Do you even remember what happened last night?" I was curious. What did I do that night I asked. They said that I kept crying out 'Nathaniel'. And then it hit me. I do sorta remember calling his name, but I don't remember crying also. God, why is he in my head? Both him and I are in a relationship. But, the only problem is, I'm not happy with mine. Or maybe he's not too? No I shouldn't be saying things like that.

Time lapse skip to 2nd quarter.

It was the beginning of second quarter and it was on a 456 day. I had beginning to lose feelings for Nathaniel, or so I hoped. And then in our chemistry class, my teacher had put us into groups. And guess who was in mine. Just great, when I think I'm losing those feelings, they come flying back to me like a truck. So we all introduced ourselves, teacher made us even though we all knew each other. And he sat next to me. Of all the chairs, why sit next me? Ugh damn you Nathaniel, why are you making me feel this way? I pushed those feelings to aside. One thing I noticed while being In a group with him is that he's so touchy touchy with me, and no one else in the group. head ass bitch lol. And he was kinda of at a lost every time we got new work to do. It was cute when he didn't know what to do. And everytime he touched me, I blushed. I mean I don't think any would noticed because my skin is sorta dark. But I always turned away.

A couple weeks passed and we were still in those groups that our teacher had put us in. I noticed a off thing about him one day. I was kinda of worried but then again why should I be worried? But he's my friend? God these questions are irritable. But that day for some reason, I was off too because my stupid boyfriend Joey always wanted to meet up and just fuck. I didn't want a relationship like that. So I guess you can say I was an asshole to him that day. And then he said "Man, you have the same attitude just like her!" I was shocked to hear him say that. I was kinda mad but also sad about the way I made him feel. So I apologized. For some reason, he looked surprised and really happy. I feel as if his relationship isn't going good. I mean they've been together for a really long time, i think i really don't know nor care as much, or do i?

To be continued.......