I pick up my sleeping 2 year old daughter from the couch. I go upstairs and lay her down in her bed. But I pick her up again taking her down the hall to mine and my husband's room. I lay her where Harry would usually sleep. "You can sleep where daddy usually does ok Mckennzie?" I tell her knowing she's fast asleep.
Harry is gone on tour with his 4 band mates of One Direction. He calls everyday about 5 times. He texts every chance he gets. I know he tries. But I miss him so much.
My insomnia keeps me awake. No way of going to sleep. Stuck in the darkness. Hoping for at least 5 minutes of sleep that never comes. I hold Mckennzie close to me. She's all I have right now. No one would be awake at this hour. Harry tells me to text him if I can't sleep or if I need him. I just can't wake him up. I know tour is exhausting for him.
My phone buzzes. I get a text. It's from Harry. 'What the hell' I think to myself. "Go to sleep" I read. "I can't" I reply. "Have you tried?" He says back. "Of course I have" I send to him. "Shouldn't you be asleep?" I ask. "I should" he says. "But I need to check on my girls before I could go to sleep. How's Mckennzie?" He sends me. "Sleeping." I say. "Good. Ill call in the morning so I can talk to you and her ok?" "Ok. But not to early" I sent. "Ok. I love you. Try and get some sleep. Ok?" He sends me. "I love you too. Ill try" I put my phone back under my pillow and lay back down. I'm alone again. Just the sound of Mckennzie sleeping can be heard. I brush her hair out of her face. A tear goes down my cheek. I miss him so much. She reminds me so much of him. My tears fall more now making my face warm with the hot tears. I lay there still as possible just wanting his touch. Wanting him with me. With us. All together again.
Part 2
I wake up to the sound if my daughters voice. "Mommy! Wake up!" Mckennzie says. "I'm up I'm up!" I assure her. I sit up in bed and look over at my daughter her hair a mess. I'm sure mines not any better. She smiles at me and laughs. She's adorable. I get a picture message from Louis.
The picture is Harry looking at his phone. "He's been looking at pictures of you for 20 minutes now. I don't know if its cute or just weird. Anyways. He misses you call him!" "Thanks Lou" I respond back. As soon as I sent it I get an incoming call from Harry.
"Well hello" I say. "Hey babe" I could tell he was smiling. "Busy day today?" "Rehearsals later. Other than that I'm free" he says. "Good. You need alittle break. You work too hard. All of you do." "I know I know. Mckennzie around?" Harry asks. "I don't know I'll have to fit you into her schedule" I say teasingly. "Hey I helped create her she better have time" I roll my eyes an put it on speaker. "Talk to daddy Mckennzie" I say handing her the phone. "Daddy?" "Hey baby. What are you doing?" He Asks. I watch as she talks to him. She misses him so much. "When are you coming home, daddy?" "Soon, ok? I promise." I could tell his voice started to shake. It's so hard for him to be away from her. "Daddy's gotta go, ok? But I love you. So much." I hear him say. "I love you too daddy." Mckennzie hands me the phone and I take it off speaker. "Harry.." I say. I knew he was crying. "We're gonna be fine" I say as tears start to fall from my eyes. "I know.." He says quietly. "Brooklynn, you have to be strong for her. You have to be.. I love you so much. You know I wanna be there. Things are so hard.." He trails off his tears taking over again. "I love you too.." I manage to get out. "I'll call later" he says quietly. I end the call not being able to take it anymore. I regain myself before my daughter notices my crying.
I pick Mckennzie up and take her downstairs to get breakfast. She eats while I put her hair in pigtails preparing her for daycare. I work modeling clothes for many different clothing lines around the world. But I stay here to model the clothes since I am a mother now. I spend most of my time with Mckennzie only taking a few days out of the week to model and design clothes.
We walk out the door and get in my car. I strap her in her carseat and hand her the juice she had been whining for. She loves listening to Harry sing it calms her down. I model with one of my best friends Alli. She bounces back between Australia and here in London. She mostly stays here. My other best friends Gracie and Abbi are on tour with the boys. Gracie is married to Niall Horan the only Irish member if the band. They don't have any children. Yet. Abbi is dating Zayn Malik. Zayn has planned to marry Abbi. But still unsure if when he's popping the question. Me and Harry are the longest lasting relationship so far. Aha crazy. I turn 21 this year.
I drive up to the day care an take Mckennzie from the carseat. "Alright Kenz. Ready for school?" I ask. "Yeah!" She says excited. She's always enjoyed going to daycare. She likes having lots of people to play with. Harry says we should think about a brother or sister to keep her company. But not now. He's too busy. I want him to be there for it like he was for Mckennzie.
I drop her off and get back in my car. I'm so tired. I drag through the day only awake on caffeine. I try my bet in all of my shots for the new magazine we're releasing soon. "God you look tired" I turn around and see Alli. "Your back!" I run and hug her. "I couldn't stay away from my bestie for long!" She says. "How was the trip??" I ask feeling more energized now. "So much fun! You have to go next time!" "You know I cant I have to look after Mck-" "she can come too!" Alli interrupts. "Alright. Well talk about it" I say. She definitely takes the most adorable Australian award. She's a talker but I love her. Who wouldn't?
I get a text. It's Gracie. "I need to see you" "it hasn't been that long has it?" I ask. "4 months. Yes. Yes it has." She responds. '4 months..' I say to myself.
"Wow" I say. "I guess it has" "I love being with Niall. But I miss you." Gracie has gone through everything with me. She's an amazing person. "I know. I miss you too. Just alittle longer. " I say. "Ok. I love you" she says. "I love you too. Have fun"
Part 3
I look at my watch. 'Already 3:30?' I say to myself. I better get to the day care. Harry never liked the idea of Mckennzie going to a daycare. He wanted to take care of her but since tour started he can't anymore and I have to work somedays. He's ok with a few days at daycare though.
I enter the building and go down the hall to her classroom. I look in and watch her for a few minutes. "Mckennzie mum is here" her teacher Rachel says. "Was she good today?" I ask Rachel as I pick Mckennzie up. "Of course as always" "good. Well we'll see you on Thursday" "bye Mckennzie" Rachel says smiling. Mckennzie waves to her as we walk down the hallway.
"Did you have fun today?" I ask her. "Yes!" Mckennzie says smiling. "Good" I say laughing.
I unlock the door to the house and lead Mckennzie in. I look up and see Zayn sitting on the couch. I cover Mckennzie's ears. "What the hell are you doing hear!?" I say. "Where's Harry?? Is he here?" He stands up. He looks worried. "No he's not here yet" he says. Yet? But why isn't he here.. Why would Zayn be here before him?? "I took an earlier flight so I could get here first. I need your help" he says looking down. "It's not that I'm not glad to see you but I'm just-" "Disappointed its not Harry? Aha I know I know." He says laughing. "But you know me and Abbi have been together for quite sometime now.." He says trailing off. "Yeah I know that. Just because I'm not on tour too doesn't mean I'm outta the loop." I say. "I want to ask her to marry me Brooklynn." Wow. But why would he come to me for that. "Omg! Zayn! That is so cute!! I can't wait! I can plan everything! I can do your hair! And her hair! Omg it'll be perfection! And then-" "calm down! She hasn't even said yes yet!" Zayn says laughing. "And besides I'm really nervous about this. I've never gone so far with someone" "of course she will say yes!" I say.
I forgot I needed to get Mckennzie something to eat. "Oh god. I gotta get Mckennzie some food." Zayn picks her up and throws her up and plays around with her while I fix her lunch. "So will you help me?" He asks as he makes funny faces at Mckennzie. "Yeah of course" I say laughing.
I pick Mckennzie up an up her at the table to eat. I talk to Zayn about what he needs to do. Mckennzie fell asleep on the couch after eating I guess it is nap time. "I'll text you" Zayn says exiting the house. "Later Malik!" I say as he shuts the door.
I pick Mckennzie up an take her up to her room and put her in her bed. I was feeling a bit tired too so I went down the hall to me and Harry's room. I lay down feeling my eyes get heavy and remembering that Harry would be home soon.
Harry's P.O.V
I wake up to the bump of the plane hitting the ground. I'm finally home. I can finally see my beautiful girls again. I look over and see the boys still sleeping. I throw a pillow at Liam and Louis since they were the closest. They look out the window and smile. We were all about to see are girls again and they had no idea. 4 months. Damn how did I live through this. The plan pulls in closer to the air port and we are able to get off.
I enter the airport and go find my Range Rover in the parking lot waiting for me. I put my bags I the back quickly and get in the drivers seat. I check my phone before leaving. I have a picture of Brooklynn as my background. "I'm coming home babe" I say setting the phone down.
I arrive at our house and unlock the door. I step in it feels amazing to be home again. But no sign of the girls anywhere. I go upstairs into Mckennzie's room and see she's sleeping. I rub her cheek with my finger and she wakes up. "Daddy!" She says standing quickly. "Hi baby" I say smiling. I pick her up and hold her close to me. I missed her so much. "Where's mommy?" I say. She shrugs and I set her down back on her bed. "Go back to sleep, ok? We're gonna play later." "Alright daddy" "I love you" I say " I love you too daddy"
I walk down the hallway to me and Brooklynn's room. I see her there laying on our bed asleep. I get on top of the bed and lay next to her. She's beautiful. Her eyes fly open after I kiss her forehead. I speak before she can say anything. "Hello beautiful"
