BROKEN HOME

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"where are you" i ask mum through the phone.

"At work sweey I told you."

"Yeahh I know but you haven't come home in a week or so. Mike is gone and dad... Yeah! Im so lonely" I whine trying to get her home...

"baby I will just you know what I will come tonight but I promise no wait you have to promise me everything is clean you dinner and you're getting Michael home you understand?"

"yeah OK see you tonight"

"see you"

Mike is still gone and nobody knows where the fuck he is.  Urggg I'm so mad at him. He does this all the freaking time, walking away with friends, saying that he's sorry and that I don't have to worry cause it will be alright..

Looking outside across the street.
There she walks.

You know that one girl which has obviously rich parents and a huge ass house. I hate these bitches.

This girl . Her name is ally 21 years old. Fucked by I guess all the boys in this town, INCLUDING MY OWN BROTHER. That whore ielllll. I can't even think about her and wtf she did to me in senior year.

*FLESHBACK*

There she is the biggest slut in fucking school. Pink crop top black skinny  jeans pink converse. Lang blond hair and a very tin body.

And here I am. Band shirt off all time low. Black ripped skinny jeans and black vans. Blue and black long hair and way too much bracelets on my wrist.

"Yoo love can you move you're fatty body over or i wil."

The only thing I could do was standing there starring at her. She's so fucking gorgeous omg why can't i be like her

"Can somebody move her she's so scary, I think she had a new crush guys... Sorry"

And it is true though I am a lesbian and I think shes hot but having a crush on her nahhhh not really.
Everyone was looking at me right now

"Did I say that at loud?"

"Yaahh sweety" ally said with a huge grin on her face. She was really enjoying this
By now ahe was starring at me. She slipped one hand in her bra to het her phone out. Dealing a number.

"Hii mike can you come pick me up your sister is annoying"

"Oke i will wait outside"

"Loveyou bye

*END FLESHBACK*

Seeing her sloppy ass walking across the streets is pretty funny.

She really is a whore

I don't understand why my brother was interested in that piece off shit...
But neither do I understand why did I found this girl hot in the first place

I turn around and walk upstairs straight to my room.
Its a mess here but I don't care as long as I can see my posters on the wall.

Once i got this bigg ass canvas print with me, my brother and the rest of his band, all the dudes from pierce the veil, all time low and sleeping with sirens. Mann i miss this time

Next to that one are a few pictures of me and my dad. I really miss him everyday. Another one is me doing michaels and lukes hair at the same time when we were on tour.

Than their is this picture which still hurts every time i look at it but it hurts even more to throw it away. Me and my girlfriend. She also isn't here anymore. She committed suicide. When we were 18. We got in this huge fight at a bar and it didn't went well afterwards. We got home but she was soo goddamn drunk. She locked herself out in the garden and trew the key away. So I couldn't get outside to find her.
Somehow I found a way to meet her again but I was too late.
Empty bottles of alcohol splattered around here body. The glass was everywhere. The only thing I can remember is oliva lying on the ground body covered in blood. i miss her so goddamn much 

Tears streaming down my face while thinking at her. It hurts so badly

People don't know this about me but im suicidel. After michael got in a depression I thought it was my fault. i walked away and did stupid thing just remind me it was my fault. I started self harming when I was 17, Oliva knew it but after she died it only became worse.

Sitting on my bed and looking toward my picters my hands find my old knife under my bed.

I slowly slice it down my wrist. Bleed dripping down from my arm onto my bed. Ahhhg this is such a nice feeling.

I put the knife away and grab my cigarettes and lighter from my table. This is how I want to end everything. Just like this...