AN OPEN-LETTER TO THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY

To The One That Got Away

[A/n: Yaaaay! Sorry po hahaha. Message lang talaga to. Kasi wala akong magawa. At maikli lang din]

You were the person i used to talked to when i needed someone that gonna listen to my nonstop dramas. You were the person who can make me smile kapag magang maga na yung mga mata ko. You were the person who enlightened my world. You were the person who keeps telling me some weird things or better to say some corny lines that cause my stomach be filled with butterflies. You were the person who keeps listening to my nonsense story. Then i'll tell you to laugh to my nonsense jokes then you'll gonna make some fake laughs. Funny right? You were the first person that i loved with all my heart without doubting your love that you're giving me back. You were the person who owned the private box of my messages. You were the first person that gonna text me when im awake. You were the first person that i have shared my super duper secrets, my family problem. People that surround me doesnt know how miserable my life was but you knew. They dont know what i have been through but you were the only person who knows. People think that i am too lucky in being me but i think im not and you knew it. Then if im thinking those fvcking shits of my life, youre always telling me that i am lucky because i have you. But were far from each other. I cant touch your nose and pinch it. I cant mess your hair. I cant hold your hands. I cant kiss you. You cant wipe my tears but i feel like youre here at my side. BUT THAT WAS BEFORE. Everything has changed in a blink of an eye. Everything that we used to do has gone. Yeah, its all fvckin gone. Are you missing me? Missing my nonstops dramas? Hey, are you tired of being my listener? Are you tired of me? But why? Why? Why did you left me? You've told me na hinding hindi mo na ko iiwan? But what's now? Where are you now? Where are your fvcking promises na dahilan ng pag asa ko? Have you ever regret it all? Nasan kana? I thought pupuntahan mo ko dito tapos susunduin mo ko to end all of my problems, to ease the pain, to make me happy with you. Akala ko ba papatunayan mong may forever. Ang tanga ko naman kasi bakit ako naniwala kahit una palang wala naman talagang forever. Lahat ng lovers naghihiwalay. Lahat ng tao namamatay. Lahat may ending siguro pagdating lang kay God yung wala, kay God may forever. Im always praying our relationship noon na sana magtagal tayo, na sana hindi tayo magbreak, na sana ikaw ang future ko, na sana hinding hindi mo ko iiwananan. Pinagprapray ko noon na sana hindi ka manawa pero anong nangyari satin ngayon? Parang kailan lang perpekto pa tayo kung hindi ipapasok ang distance thingy. Being loved by someone like you was such a beautiful dream. Yeah, a DREAM. And waking up from that nice dream was a worst NIGHTMARE.