"Umm Jessalyn why are you wearing a jacket.. it's like 100 degrees outside.. Freak." Courntney says. I roll my eyes and go to my table with Emily, Jasmine, Sarah and Kyleigh. Im not really paying attenion to the conversation. I can't.. My thoughts are a mess. "Jess.. Why aren't you eating..?" Emily asks. "Uh I'm not hungry.." I say. She nods with a weird expression on her face. Oh well.. Give them a while.. They'll replace me. Everyone does. I push my food around with a fork and wait for the day to be over. Finally after I got out of that prison I have to go see my therapist because since I moved and my relationship with my mom got all screwed up my dad has been "worried" about me. My thereapist is the only person I can talk to without being judged. and since my best friend Jada died I can't cope much... "Hey Jess how're you doing? You look like your finally putting on a little bit of weight. How much do you weigh now. 90 pounds?" She says. "88 pounds, yeah.. I started eating more.. Once everyday." I say. she sighs but manages to smile. "thats good." she says. I nod.. "I cant sleep." I tell her. She has a puzzled look on her face "tell me about it." I tell her everything on impulseand I start crying. I tell her how much I miss my family and how I want to die. How nobody understands what I'm going through. How I can't even be myself anymore because it doesn't feel right. How I hate cancer and blame myself for everything. How depression is taking over my life. How I cant seem to get a grip on reality. I even found myself telling her I've tried to commit suicide twice. "Please don't put me in a mental hospital" I whisper shakily.
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~AMANDA
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Inside the Head of the Lost Girl
Teen FictionWhen Cayleen and Jessalyn, two girls who have never met each other before, end up writing letters to each other from a therapy experiment they realize they're closer than they think. will they be able to help each other with the things going on in t...
