Tiny snowflakes cascade from the inky sky
and drift past the pale yellow light of the streetlamp
like shooting stars past the sun.
My worn tennis shoes create prints in the snow.
I shove my shaking hands deep into the warm caves of my jacket pockets
The sharp cold air on my skin
distracts me from the chaos inside my head
I close my eyes, and feel the cold powder hit my face.
Here I am
Standing in the snow
All my feelings
all my emotions
leak out of the ties I bound them in
A warm stream of tears begins running down my raw cheeks
I saw you last week
the memory of your face warms my heart
the scars on your arms
scar my heart
why are the most beautiful people
always the saddest
you deserve the world
I want to fall into your beautiful eyes
just so I can understand the universe inside of your head
I stumble through the snow, gasping for air
Is it me
Am I the reason you are destroying yourself
Am I the reason you lie awake at night
sobbing into your pillow
I collapse into the cold white blanket
I miss you
I miss the warmth of your arms around me.
I miss your smile
Not your fake smile
I miss the kind of smile that you only give every once in awhile.
I miss laying on the roof
holding you tightly
while we look at the stars
Please don't leave me
The world would be such a sad place without you
I am shaking now
but not because of the cold
I look up into the sky
at all the falling stars
I can almost see your eyes.
almost
