*31st January 2015*
im just sitting here in the bath, like you do on a normal sunday night so you can be 'relaxed' and so you can 'sleep well' because there's school tomorrow (not that it ever works though). one direction on full blast with a few OfMiceAndMen and Slipknot songs in the mix aswell, you know just to have a bit of variety.
//PING//
another facebook notification,* i know im great and that but theres no need to spam me haha.* i say that with the first notification of the day. i thought i could ignore it because it would be some sort of game request because im the most popular person everr[sarcasm]
//PING//
//PING//
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more notifications, some shit must have gone down, either that or my stalker creepy ex has made a come back. i wish he would leave me alone like, who the fuck does he think he is, fucking me about for months, cheating on me and trina use me? i wouldnt be surprised if i punch him soon. thats what you get, as soon as you start to move on from someone, they message you and flip your wholeee world up again.
//PING//
this must be serious if someone wants me to reply this soon. i reached aross my bathroom (leaning over the side of the bath) to grab a towel so i could dry my hands and arms before touching my phone. me-water-and phones DO NOT MIX, i know you want to know why (why wouldnt you), but yeah i got a new phone for my birthday and i went around to my friends house and dropped it in the hot tub. yeahhh, lets not go into too much detail.
//PING//
yeahhh, another one, i layed over the side of the bath even more and got my towel, the only thing is, i was now stuck with my face on the floor and my naked bum stuck in the air. i dried my hands and arms and yes, i accidentally dropped the towel in the bath, it was one of those shitty towels you get free and when you wash them the colour comes out, so the first time i was popular, i was turning blue.
after all that faff, i finally got my phone. 'Jamie ****** poked you 5 times in a row, 'Jamie ****** liked your profile picture'. someone must be talking about me because this never happens.
to see if it was messing around i did the same back to him.
//THAT SHITTY SAMSUNG WHISTLE NOTIFICATION SOUND//
Jamie- 'Hi, instead of poking you back i thought i would inbox you'
I WAS FREAKING OUT AN ATTRACTIVE LAD INBOXED ME FIRST! THIS IS NOT A DRILL THIS IS NOT A DRILL!!
me- 'hi, haha okay, how are you'
i was trying to keep my cool as much as i could without seeming boring, but not being my normal self (which is weird af)
after a long time of discussing how we were and what we were doing, we started to talk about music.
Jamie- 'i like alot of stuff, im listening to Of Mice And Men right now'
me- 'OMG no way so am i! thats sooo cool'
haha so much for keepng cool, i just couldnt accept the fact that an attractive affff dude inboxed me.
it got later and later, talking to this guy and after every message i liked him even more, yes i admit it was early to decide about feelings; but now i had got him talking properly to him, there was no way on earth i was letting him go.
days and weeks passed, we spoke every day, liking each other's photos/ statuses, i thought something was definitely happening. we spoke about meeting but i never thought that we would because we lived so far apart.
i stayed up every night speaking to him untill stupid o'clock in the morning. it didnt take long for me to decide, but i thought i was getting strong feelings for him. after the last twat i was with, i promised myself that i wouldnt love someone again (it wouldnt happen but i decided it would be a good idea to think that), but that plan went straight down the plug hole...
Nothing really happened for a while but one time my youth group (this little thing that i went to bc my mum helped out at) decided they would arrange to go ice skating as a 'treat'. i was abso shitting myself bc i hadnt been since my cringy 'relationship' (i wouldnt even call it that) in year 7. as we normally did we asked each other if we had any plans for the week coming up, i told him about the skating thingy and he explained how he used to go and he was a 'boss' at it. i dont know how we decided to meet there, but we did.
the friday night came, i was both buzzing oot my tits because i was meeting my bae and shitting myself. whenever we were going out in a group or shomething, my best friend Lozz always came over so we could get ready and all hyped together. im the laziest bugger when it comes to looking good but that one day i tried my fucking hardest.
i picked the nicest outfit i had and put in a shit load of effort with my make up.
*like an hour and a bit later*
i tried to skate but fuck that, i couldnt do it. Lozz knew i fancied Jamie an awful lot and it was pretty embarrassing.
i spotted him in the corner putting on his skates. i physically got dragged over by Lozz and she started speaking to him, well flirting.
after abit of skating and stuff he took me to the side and hugged me and smiled at me so much, i had the most insane butterflies. yeahh, we kissed. it was pretty great tbh. i knew, right there that he was the one.
* a while later because not much happend*
it came to my birthday, we were both on holiday and i used up most of our cruise wifi allowence talking to him. i woke up in the morning to a huge ass paragraph, it made me smile sososososo much. i thought the world of this kid and that nothing would get between us.
*about december time bc we werent that close and we didnt meet much*
we were quite distant, im not going to lie. we were still there for each other but we only spoke about 3 times a week. we had an alrightish christmas, we met on the 27th and hugged and had McDonalds but it went downhill from there.
*new years day*
i remember this bit really well, mainly because it was the 1st day of 2016 and it was possibly the worst day of my life.
i got a random inbox off this lass asking me about bae, he automatically told me to block her but i didnt, and that was the biggest mistake.
several hours went by with me arguing with jamie and the lass that fucked my head up. yeahh, he cheated, yeah he slept with someone else. it made me so mad, i didnt do anything but shake violently and cry. he said that it affected him shit loads and how do i think he feels. i dont think he understood how much of a confidence and life killer that was.
i was just getting to grips with my life and i found out that the person had been speaking to for almost a whole year, pretty much lied to me the whole time.
there isnt enough words in the English language that could describe how distraught i was.
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i dont know why i decided i would give him another chance but i did.
im not going to lie but it was the best decision i have probably ever made.
