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but here you come again ameria, telling me you love me. 

screaming at me, how could I ever say that?

how could I say I don't love you?

but I didn't say that

but that's what I meant

I know what I meant

but I didn't mean it in the way you would think ameria

and it doesn't matter what I meant because either way i'm trying to get rid of you

but don't you think that's what best?

maybe what's best is for me to stop thinking I know what's right for myself when I don't even know myself

and I tell myself I know myself but I always lie to myself and you

I don't 

you don't

does anyone know me?

do you?

am I lying to you right now?

am I lying to myself about lying to myself?

is this all I do ameria, ask you questions

that you don't answer

what's the point of me asking you when you don't care?!

tell me!

because I can't do this anymore sweet heart

I can I can I can

you can do it

but I can't

but I can try

because I'm just trying to get rid of you again and you don't want to leave, the problem is you, not me, i'm fucking fine! you're the one with a problem ameria! you're the one who needs help!!

do they have therapists in heaven

do they have bad memories in hell

do they have both where you are

there's a lot of them here but I can't hold onto either one

Received: Dec, 5, 2012, at 1:12 PM