The Boy With The Rainbow Lace's

I Am Me

I am me, but saying that has a grand variety of meaning.
Im the boy in animeclub at school, but too shy to participate most of the time, I'm the boy who plays video games a lot, I love the feeling of being the hero, saving those who cannot save themselves.
Im only 16, but I work my hardest at a small pizza parlor to earn cash, despite my coworkers who all make lesbian jokes.
Im the boy who likes smiles (god I sound like a creep,) but I do, peoples smiles are what drives me to try to be a good guy.
Sometimes people look at me and I can read there eyes...I know what they think...
There goes the fat kid, the weird kid with mental problems, the freak that is always quiet, the weirdo that wont hang out in big public places.
But despite what they say...I refuse to be known as the whore who slep with that boy that one fall...that is complete bull...when something happens that is not consensual, why would the victim be the whore?
Im a conflicted person as well...how poetic can it get? One that hates the world, but also finds it so beautiful? The eyes of an artist, that can find beauty in the smallest thing, from a city lamppost to the flakes of color in someones eyes. Yet feel so sick to himself when he is forced to remember that which does make him hate the world. I am a conflicted person I guess, but its the way I am.