Comes back after ages and throws chapter at you. Hope you like it and as always please vote and comment.
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"I think I should go home again." Troye had just been hanging out on Connor's couch when he suddenly announced this to his best friend. He wasn't really sure if he wanted to go back to his apartment, but he didn't want to impose on Connor so there wasn't any other opportunity. He would managed. It had worked to past two weeks, at least kind of, so it would work again now, right?
Connor was quite surprised by Troye suddenly wanting to go back home again. It had seemed to him as if Troye would never want to go back there again, when he asked him to stay at his place the previous night. And now he said he wanted back, that just didn't seem right. He turned to the young Australian to ask him if he was sure about that, and quickly realized, that he didn't even have to ask that question. Troye didn't seem happy with going back home at all. But then again Troye didn't seem very happy at all lately. Still he didn't want him to be alone. "You really don't have to Troye. You can stay as long as you want you know that right, I like having you here. I missed you a lot lately." he tried to convince his friend. But to no avail. Troye had already decided he wanted to go back, so he would. "I missed you too Con, but I still have to go home. I have to function on my own you know."
That didn't seem like a good idea to Connor. He hadn't even said that he wanted to go back. Just that he had to, Troye clearly didn't seem happy with his decision. But still, Connor couldn't force him to stay. He could just try to reason with him, maybe he'd listen. "Well yeah at some point. You shouldn't rush it though, if you're not ready to go back there yet its fine." he tried, but still Troye was set on going home.
"No I want to really, but it would be great if you could help me decorate the apartment a little bit. It's really bare right now, and you have such a great style, with your help it could really look like a home, you know." So keeping Troye from going home really wasn't an option anymore, well he would surely help him decorate the apartment. Connor hadn't seen much of it when he picked Troye up, but from what he had seen, it seemed pretty bare, like no one even lived there, which was probably true, since Troye had moved in with Tyler pretty much the second he came to America. Connor had never known, why he had even gotten the apartment, but never mind, it was good that he had it now. And Connor would help him make it absolutely stunning.
"If you really wanna go home then do it. And of course I'll help you, I'd love to actually." as soon as Connor had said that Troye was already getting up from the couch and on his way to gather his stuff.
"Wow Troye, why such a hurry? Do we have to leave right now?" Connor was truly shocked by his friends haste to leave. "I want to go to some shops to find decorations for my room. If we don't leave soon, the shops will be closed and I don't want to sleep in an empty apartment so come on. We've been lying on the couch or in your bed all day anyways. We need to get up and do something." Troye's enthusiasm came as a surprise to Connor. It was a good sign though, maybe he was actually getting happier.
An hour later the two boys were standing in Troyes apartment, looking at what they needed and making a list of the stuff they wanted to buy, which was had already gotten alarmingly long by that time. Good thing Troye wasn't short on money at the moment. But the thing was Troye kept adding stuff to the list, basically changing his whole apartment.
"I think I should get rid of the furniture as well, it just doesn't feel right. I don't really like it anymore." Troye suddenly burst out. He needed to change all of it. Everything just reminded him of the time he decided to come to America. The time when him and Tyler were beginning to get close, all the excitement and the fuzzy feeling in his stomach. All that came back to him when he looked at the stuff in this flat.
The problem was the feelings weren't good anymore. The excitement he had felt back then just seemed grotesque to him now. It was all just a lie. All the things he had been looking forward to back then had turned out to be a lie in the end. Everything Tyler had told him had been a lie. Because he had been telling it to some other guy at the same time. And the fuzzy feeling. That was the worst of all. Because what it had led to was his current situation. He did have a strange feeling in his stomach sure, but it wasn't fuzziness anymore. Right now he just felt sick. He needed to get out of there. Quickly.
Just as he thought that Troye ran over to the door of his apartment, he needed fresh air, and he needed to see things that didn't remind him of what could have been, of what he had thought him and Tyler were going to be.
Without even realizing how he got there Troye found himself in the park right across from his apartment building. This was better. Fresh air and no emptiness. He looked at his surroundings, taking in the playground in front of him and the benches situated all around it. But then he saw a couple sitting on one of them, cuddling close together and whispering to each other. They were on a date that much was for sure.
Just like him and Tyler had been about a year ago, when it had all started in this exact park. They had ended their first date on one of these benches. Here was were Tyler had kissed him for the first time (Well if you don't count the kiss at digifest but let's be honest that wasn't a real kiss, it had just been for show. At least for Tyler.)
Tears were once again streaming down Troyes face. Why did he come here? He knew that so many things between them had happened in this park. Was he subconsciously torturing himself or what was going on? He really had to get himself together. Why should he be out here crying his eyes out while Tyler was enjoying his time with his new boyfriend? He didn't need him to be happy, he was perfectly fine on his own.
"God Troye you shocked me. You can't just disappear like that." Connor shouted from the other end of the park. He had been in Troyes bathroom when the other boy had suddenly left the building, and was really worried when he came back to an empty room. "Oh my god Troye, are you ok? Why are you crying?" By now he had reached the bench the crying boy was sitting on and saw the tear tracks his face.
"I guess I'm ok. It's just all these memories that keep coming back to me. I couldn't stand it anymore so I had to get out of the apartment. I hadn't really thought of the fact that this whole area is full of memories. I'm sick and tired of this. I don't wanna cry over him anymore. He's perfectly fine with his new guy as well so why should I be sad." Troye answered so fast that Connor could barely understand a word. But one thing was sure to him. Troye wasn't going to be happy around here, that's why he shouldn't let him stay here. They could redecorate the apartment as much as they want, the memories would still stay.
"It's perfectly normal to be sad Troye, you loved him that doesn't go away just like that." He tried to comfort his friend, failing miserably
"So you're saying Tyler never loved me? That's why he's happy now. "Troye got out between sobs, so much to not crying over him anymore.
"God no. Of course he loved you, have you seen the way he looked at you? But things change. He just had time to get ready for the breakup. He knew it was coming, that's why he isn't that sad right now."
"I just want to get away from here Connor." By now Troye was cuddled into his friend's side, not even listening to what he was saying, just wanting to get out of there and sleep for hours straight. "I think I'll look for a hotel to stay at until vidcon. Then I'm going to be home with my parents for a while anyways, after that I hope I'll be able to stay at the apartment again."
"Troye you don't need to go to a hotel. Come back to my place and stay with me till vidcon. We haven't had enough time together anyways, lately." Connor was quick to suggest. He didn't want Troye to stay at a hotel on his own. Also, he wasn't going to give up the opportunity to wake up next to this beautiful boy for another few nights.
"You sure Connor, don't you want some time on your own before vidcon?"
"Hell no, I get time on my own all the time. Now I want some time with my best friend." Saying that he helped Troye up from the bench and they made his way over to his car, to end the day just as they had stared it, cuddled up in bed, talking about everything and nothing.
AN:
I'm so sorry guys, I know I said I would be updating once a week. Well that didn't work out. I'm sorry, but I just had so much to do, then I couldn't think of anything to write and well now I'm back. I don't know when the next chapter will be up. Hopefully soon.
Also, I saw Troye yesterday =) =) =) =) He was so amazing. Literally the best concert I've ever been to. I was 2nd row so I could really see him and stuff. He's soo cute and nice and pretty, and don't even get me started on his eyes. (you can see, I'm delirious)
Again, please vote and comment if you liked it. (and tell me what you didn't like. Constructive criticism is highly appreciated I'm still learning how to do this whole writing thing....)
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