And yes, it's true. I have a big problem with letting people in. I tried my hardest to fight against my brain, but I failed every time. So I thought about what actually my problem is. While I was thinking about that, I found so many problems with myself, that I hated the person I was. I felt like I'm stone hearted and numb.
I thought that I can never love somebody in the way they normally do because of this problem I can not describe. And then I was thinking about the small things I love in my life ...
Reading a book which makes me happy or very sad.
Laughing with some friends in class until my stomach hurts, just because somebody said something funny.
Cooking dinner with soul mates while we are singing and dancing in the kitchen.
Walking through the night when it's warm.
Obviously, there are people who can't hear their heart and do what their brain says to them. I think I'm one of these people but I don't let it destroying me. So please stop hating yourself for something you can not influence. It's okay to be a person with trust issues. There are things you will always love and maybe one day somebody will teach you, how to think and feel with your beautiful heart, even if you don't believe in it yet.
-r
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PoetryPoetry is the goddess in my dark soul. She starts growing up when I'm afraid of living. -r Die Gedichte sind größtenteils von mir selbst verfasst. Es werden aber auch ein paar mit dabei sein, die es eben nicht sind. Meine eigenen werde ich einfach...
