Her Holiday Thoughts

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26th

"im telling myself, 'stop it.'"

27th

"im thankful for the books. i finally managed to spent an hour or so not thinking of him. 'achievement.'"

"i realized that i sent an image of quotation to my bestfriend. containing what i feel right now. the same to what she feels. to him. but she would consider it as one of my nonsense dramas. i think she wont receive the message im trying to point out. she doesnt have a clue. even tiniest. i cant tell her. not yet. i dont know why. maybe because im afraid of what she would react. or what she might feel. or how things will turn out after i tell her everything."

"well, maybe it is better to keep it to myself. i will dig it to the deepest corner of my mind. and leave it there. until it finally goes away."

"everytime i see his icon, im starting to feel something strange. its making me hard to breathe. i think im just overwhelmed to see it. that i can say that there is a precious life behind that account that making me feel like this."

🎶 haunted - taylor swift 🎶

Ruined holiday break because of him

28th

"i keep telling myself, 'i should stop with these stupid lil hopes. all of these wont do any good. i must stop these.'"

"i dont think of him that much. which is a really good sign. considering that there is only a week left before the classes start again."

"im thinking maybe ill feel less of 'it.' this is what im hoping for."

"i dont wanna see him for i might feel 'all of it' again. im hoping that i wont."

29th

"i deleted the memo. containing my confused feelings for him. im hoping that my feelings would be erased too. cause i dont want to let these things grow bigger."

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