Sometimes I feel forgotten. Like when people pretend ur not there or when they are mad at u they're don't tell u why. It doesn't make sense. Like if u are mad at them at least tell them why. I feel forgotten somethings. I feel forgotten by a lot of people. Like I have this best friend from my old school and I moved. But we send letters. Then they stopped coming. I feel forgotten by the people I love. Sometimes my bf would talk to my best friend (I'm not jealous or anything). Like he would call my friend over or go up to her and talk. And I'm standing next to her and he will say nothing to me. I sometimes I feel like he pretends I'm not there. So in grade three I was invisible. No one talked to me but two people. Jon and Brogan. People would barely talk to me. I feel like if I wandered off no one would care or even say anything. They would keep on talking like I'm not there. So one of my friends want to do a talent show with me I said sure. Then ever seen all he would talk about is the talent show. He would say like do a back walk over. I told him I can't. I'm not flexible. He said just do it. It's like he is trying to brake my back or something. I just feel like nobody cares. If I was in the hospital I think only one person would show up (that's not in my family). Kylee. I'm not choosing favorites, but it's true. I don't know if my bf would show up or not. Like if my friends at school weren't there. I would be against the wall reading or be playing tag with Brogan (Brogan is my friend). I'm not trying to sound selfish or anything. I'm just saying what I feel. I keep all this feelings inside. I don't know why. I don't know why I don't tell anyone. I tell myself I have to but I just don't. "I'm a Granada ready to explode" Fault in our stars. Some day I'm going to explode. But till then I'm forgotten. Sorry if this has gone 0 to 100 real fast but I just need to write or type this down. I don't think anybody is going to read this. But oh well. If my friends read this they would probably hate me and be mad at me. That's why I don't really tell people how I feel. They might get mad at me. And if they do, what do I do? Sometimes I wish I can start over. I drew this picture in class. It had a mountain in the middle and it had a day side and a night side. And the top of the mountain in the middle is a star. And at the back it says, I wish I can go back in time and redo everything. When I touch the star my wish would come true but I would never make it. I feel so forgotten that I feel so........forgotten. So we have this Toronto trip on June 21 2016. We are taking a bus. I bet no one is going to sit with me. I bet I'm going to sit down on the bus and people would sit around me but not with me. The only way is that there is no more seats. (Or someone asks me. Probably not). So I might write or type some more then. I feel forgotten. If someone reads this they would probably hate me or kill me. It feels good typing it down. But I'm kinda in tears. Like tears are going down my cheeks.
