Youth

Choice

You asked me why I chose him when I have lots of choices. I told you because you're one of the kinds that existed and we're meant to be like you're my Johnny Cash and I'm your June. Honestly, it wasn't the love we thought we shared. It was the loneliness and distance that made us grow closer and indirectly, my confused feelings for you grew. I knew deep in my heart this is not what I want but who could resist a chance like that. A chance to be happy and confused with the idea of love in our mind.

I decided to take the chance that could've killed me. I was yours and you were mine. The world was ours and nobody is in our way. It was like a never ending ecstasy but that didn't last long. I longed for you and your touch. It was overwhelming for the both of us.

In the end, you left abruptly when I needed you the most. I was devastated that you left and sorrow consumes me. I know at the moment it wasn't loved. You were just confused or flattered like those before you. Now I bear a deep fresh wound on my heart waiting for time to heal.