A Spoby Story: I'm Safe Now

Chapter 11

Toby's POV

I wake up with Spencer's head on my chest and my hands in her hair. I look at the clock and it's 7 am. Spencer needs to wake up,she has school. I gently shake her,whispering: "Spencer,wake up.." She slowly opens her eyes and says with a sleepy voice: "Morning..." I sit up and tell her:

"Come on,you have to hurry up,school starts soon".

"Is everything okay? You are acting weird.."

I take a deep breath,knowing that what we will talk about won't be easy for her.. "Last night,when I tried to take off your cardigan so you could have a good sleep,something fell on the floor. I picked it up,and it was a.. a razor,.. full of blood." Spencer's eyes started to get wet,and I could tell she was going to cry..

"You were not supposed to see that,Toby.."

"But I had. So can you explain? Please? I thought you were done with these things!"

"DONE with these things?! Just because I smile when I am with you,it doesn't mean I am not harming myself anymore! You are the best thing that has happened to me since ALISON DIED and I'm trying to stay strong for you! Okay?! I'm going to sleep wishing that I won't wake up anymore! I haven't been cutting for the last two weeks! I did NOT use that! I found it! At my front door! Somebody put it there!"

My heart was breaking,hearing her saying things like that and crying.. I hug her tight and she starts to sob in my shirt. I gently play with her hair and kiss her on the forhead. "I'm sorry..  I should have trusted you.." "It's okay.." she says as she wipes her tears away and kisses my lips. "Now come on,go get ready for school. I'll see you later,okay baby?" She nodded and we kissed one more time.

Spencer's POV

I went into the bathroom and I remembered again that Ali is dead.. I took a razor from my secret shelf,and I started cutting,but not very deep. I started to cry,voices in my head saying: You are not good enough. You will never be. Alison is dead now,what are you gonna do? Your little friends will leave you soon. And Toby deserves better. You are not good enough for him. 

After crying,I got in the shower,washed myself,dressed and started to drive to school. Emily,Hanna and Aria were walking to me,shouting: "Spence!" I stopped and waited for them.

''So when are we starting the plan?"

"Never."

They looked confused. "What? Why?"

"-A heard about our plans, I don't know how,but he/she/it did. And -A threatend me that if we continue the plan,my secret will come out."

"What secret? they ask,curious.

"Uh.. I don't know." I lied.

"It will be okay Spencer. Now come on,let's get ready for our classes." I nodded and we hugged.

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Hours passed away and school finished. We were walking down the school hall,when Hanna asked: "Can we have a sleepover tonight? I wanna spend some time with you guys."

"Yeah,that's a good idea." Emily and Aria say.

"Well,I would say come to my place,but Toby will come over later and I don't know if I can join the sleepover.."

"Spencer! You know we promised for-.. for Ali that this tradition will never break. Do it for her. Can't you tell Toby that you have some stuff to do?" Hanna said.

I sighed and nodded. " You are right,I'm sorry. So at 6 pm at my place,okay?" They all approved,we hugged once again and everyone went home.

I entered the house and I went upstairs in my room. I laid on my bed and soon after,I fell asleep. When I woke up,it was 5:30 pm. Oh god I need to buy nail polish,magazines,rent a dvd and buy popcorn and Munky Chunky!!!! I sat up very fast and I drove to the nearest shop. I bought all we needed for our sleepover and I also ordered chinese food. As soon as I arrived home,I put the things on the table,I made popcorn and brought my sleeping back. When I came back downstairs,the girls were already sitting in their sleeping bag,with the popcorn bags in their hands. I laughed to myself and I texted Toby: Hey,I'm sorry but we need to cancel. I am having a sleepover with the girls. Promise we'll hang out tomorrow.

I sat next to the girls and started watching the movie. Suddenly,the door bell rang.

"Must be the chinese food guy!" Hanna said. I could tell she was hungry. I opened the door,but there stood Toby.

"What are you doing here? Didn't you get my text?" I said,stepping out and closing the door behind me.

"Yeah,but I wanted to check on you."

"Check on me? Why?" I asked confused.

"You know.. Just.. I wanted to make sure you aren' doing anything stupid."

"I thought you trusted me!"

"I do! I was just worried,okay?"

I nodded and hugged him. He kissed me gently on the lips and he left. I went back inside and joined the girls. Halfway at the movie,the door bell rings again. I sit up and open the door. Finally! The food is here! I pay the guy and I close the door.

"Chinese food everyone!" I shout,laughing when I see how the girls run to me,just like the old times. But she was missing.. Will I ever get over this? I wonder if the girls think the same or they are more used to it than I did. We started to eat,then we finished the movie,we painted our nails,we listened to music,we laughed,we read magazines and soon after we all fell asleep.

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*morning*

Spencer's POV

I wake up with the girls laying on the floor in their sleeping bags next to me. We start school today at 9 am. I look at the clock and it's 8:20 am. Fuck this shit!

"Girls,wake up! We need to go to school!"

"Spencer. It's Saturday. Relax." Hanna says sleepy.

I breath out thankfully and text Toby: Think you can come over later?

He replies immediately: Sure. See ya.

I smile to myself and I fall back asleep.

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Okay guys so I know I haven't been posting so much lately so I made it up to you. Hope this chapter is enouh. I promise it will be more Spoby in the next one,and I hope it will be as long as this. So I think it will be up tomorrow night or on Thursday. Love you!