But On the Inside.

Roommates

Sam's P.O.V

     Everyone said there hello's and I felt different. I felt like I was lying to all these peoples faces because no one knew or suspected that Danny and I weren't really a thing right now. But I think we should keep it to ourselves and that's that. "So I thought since you guys took so damn long to get here I would choose rooms for everyone. I hope you don't mind." Tom said leading upstairs. It was a couple a trip and I just felt icky. Rob was here with a nice girl he met at the gym. Tom was obviously with Gisele, Julian and Elena were totally hitting it off, and Jimmy brought his fiancé Hannah. Everyone was all glad to be together in Hawaii and here I was thinking o how stupid I was to let Danny think I have lost feelings when every second of the day I'm holding back tears. I still can't believe he called Kay in an effort to replace me. "Sam and Danny in this one if you don't mind." I shook out of my daze and saw everyone staring at me. "Sorry, I'm just excited." Everyone nodded. Why were they looking at me, though? "We'll get unpacking then. Come on Sam," Danny held my shoulder gently and led into the room closing the door behind him. I was in a daze and just didn't really understand what just happened. I could hear everyone's footsteps moving down the hall and Danny let out a deep sigh. "Talk to me," he said lifting my chin with his finger. I didn't look ashamed that the first thing I would say is why is everyone staring at me like I'm psycho. Then I knew. I saw a drop of water land on Danny's arm and then slowly more and more came. "Come on. Tell the old bar stool what's bugging you I won't judge." He pulled me into his lap and I collapsed. I couldn't hold my shit together. This whole trip had me fucked up. I knew I should've stayed home. But I wanted to prove something that wasn't true. I wanted Danny to think it no longer would hurt me if we saw other people but boy was I wrong. Not being able to kiss him or be myself with him because I was too busy being a bitch drove me insane. And I could see how slowly he was drifting away from me and I needed him. But should I tell him?

Danny's P.O.V

     I could hear everyone's footsteps moving down the hall and Sam helplessly sat on the bed. "Talk to me," I said lifting her chin with my finger. She didn't look at me and bit her lip instead. I saw a drop of water land on my arm and then slowly more and more came. I held on tighter and she melted like jelly. "Come on. Tell the old bar stool what's bugging you I won't judge." I pulled her into my lap and she collapsed. She sobbed uncontrollably. This whole trip had me thinking of that night with Kay over and over. I messed up big. I knew I should've stayed home. But I wanted to get my mind off Sam and I did in the stupidest way possible. I wanted her to think it no longer would hurt me if we saw other people but boy was I wrong. Not being able to kiss her or for us to be on our own because I was too busy being a dick annoyed me. And I could see how slowly she was drifting away from me and I needed her. But should I tell her? "I just really miss my mom and dad. They slipped into my mind on the plane ride and um." My heart couldn't have shattered faster. I thought she maybe had gotten her feelings back and she missed me. I thought that this nightmare would be over. I also thought that she heard me on that damn plane but I was so wrong. I felt like an idiot for getting my hopes up and letting my guard down. "Right, well soon you'll forget how much it hurts." I stood up and started shoving my clothes in drawers.

Sam's P.O.V

     I couldn't get myself to tell Danny that wanted him back and I wanted to get married. I was the one that called our entire relationship off and I shouldn't back out. This was my fault. I couldn't tell him. "I just really miss my mom and dad. They slipped into my mind on the plane ride and um." I stopped there feeling like I was about to drown in my own words. Danny nodded understandingly. I hated that he thought I didn't love him and I hated that he was drifting away. "Right, well soon you'll forget how much it hurts." He stood up and started unpacking.(PLAY SONG). I went straight into the restroom and silently sobbed. This trip was going to drive me insane. 'Move on,' I whispered to myself. 'He will always love Kay.' I rocked back and forth crying against the wall. He's gone.

Danny's P.O.V

     Once she went into the restroom I walked out to the balcony attached to the room. I leaned up against the wood railing. I looked out into the beautiful scenery and for the first time since she told me it was off I actually thought about life without her. I hated it. I can't stand this anymore. I let the tears fall. 'So much for a fucking vacation.' I wiped the drops that slid down my cheeks. I can't believe this shit. She's gone.

Julian's P.O.V

    During our "tour" the thought of Sam and Danny kept distracting me. It's crazy how they went from will you marry me to stay away from me. I was worried. I never pictured them like this. That day at the bar it was love at first sight for him and now it's gone. This wasn't good. This trip was going to be an episode of Jersey Shore. Sam and Ron all over again.

Author's Note: I'm sorry I know I'm lame for not updating but I just haven't had the damn chance too. I will get more of an opportunity once I finish my summer project. Comment your opinions. If it sucks let me know LMAO.