Mistakes.

"Feeling It Overtake."

{Rih}

I felt so at ease.

I love being on vacation and just relaxing. No stress of perfecting everything for shows or anything just time to unwind and relax for a while.

Too bad vacation ended and it was time to head back to the house I have in L.A.

I would've invited the girls to hang with me, but I needed some peace and quiet-- quite frankly, I just needed some 'me-time.'

I was lying in bed flipping through tv channels until I got a text from Melissa.

m$11: biiiiiiiiitch guess who I just saw at The Nice Guy.......

👀 ..who?

m$11: ..yo nigga. Looks like he got him a new bitch.

I rolled my eyes, '🙄🙄😒 phuck him AND his bitch... what she look like?'

m$11: basic as phuuuuuck bihhhh.

Figures.

🤐

I tossed my phone to the side and sighed.

I can't believe it's been over 2 years since I've last seen or heard from him.

I lost my best friend and don't know if I'll ever be able to get him back.

He was more than a best friend, he was my lover. Someone that loved and cared for me and my wellbeing more than he loved and cared for himself. I can't sit here and lie about not missing him because I do. And I also can't sit here and say I don't love him... because I still do.

I always think about how he's doing without me. I hope he's ok.

I didn't realize tears were rolling down my cheeks until I felt them hit my chest. I quickly wiped them away.

*later that evening*

I ended up going out with another one of my close friends, Annalise, to the club. I didn't really want to, but Annalise has a good way of persuading a nigga.

Instead of dressing up in one of my favorite nightclub outfits, I instead decided to go for a casual but cute look.

"Girl, you know you look fly as fuck, right?"

I laughed, "Shut up, no I do not! You look cuter."

"Girl, bye. You know every nigga in the club finna try and hop on you," she winked.

"Mm, I don't know about all that, but you know us black girls be on another level than niggas sometimes so..."

We laughed and finally headed towards the doors to the club.

I covered my eyes as the paparazzi flashed their cameras all over me while walking in with Annalise. Once we made our way inside, she ordered us some drinks and grabbed us a table towards the back.

"Well look what the cat drug in..."

I sipped on my drink and looked up from my phone and smirked. "Rakim.... wassuuuup nigga?"