Oceans of unexpected feelings

Goodnight memories

I still lay awake.
Hours after I have said goodnight,
Yet I still cant close my eyes.
I want to text you once again.
I want to tell you how much I love you as if I haven't said it to many times before.
I'm afraid you don't believe me,
As if I am kicking a dead horse.
That our relationship is based souly on that we love each other.
I want to be with you,
See if your eyes light up the way mine do when I think of you,
Wrap my arms around the one man I can feel so safe with even though we are not close.
I want to see how your mouth form your words you wish to speak.
I could stay up for hour imagining us just talking as if miles are not between us.
But I still feel that sliver of doubt . As if you don't want to experience these small meaningless things with me.
Or I'm am just overthinking
Thinking that you could be like the others
But how could you possibly be like the others.