Art Book 4

How i personally feel!

So I was looking at something online and well I kinda noticed something that feels really personal to me and its..do people care about straights anymore? Now I don't want a argument on this but personally its very hard for me to say 'I love you're sometimes. To show my ahead scenerarios lemme show ya

*My friends and i sit at a table*

Friend 1: guys I have a girl friend!

*Friends talk smiling*

Me: oh congrats dude!! Who be the lucky person?

Friend: lol you'll see, so Cloude do you have a crush on anyone?

Me:....umm..no..i don't like anyone. I dont exactly find anyone attractive at the moment ^^;

Friend 2: dating Anyone?

Me: nope.

Now I k ow your thinking what the heck cloude this has nothing to do with this! Well lemne break it down to ya. I feel I'm never gonna find anyone because of my skin. I do see many mixed couples and alot of racism is going around towards black people. Yes, I am black. So of course I have never known what it's like to love. Yes, I have had a crush. And they have on me. But when your crush likes ya for a day then moves on you sonetines get anxiety and wonder what's wrong with me.

Yes, I have wish to never be here on earth before or atleast wonder what it's like not to and sometimes I feel I'm never going to find anyone because I'm black. People don't find them attractive for some reason some do though of course. Am I not attractive? That's all I had to rant on hehe ^^;