Project: Steal Your Heart (ON HOLD)

Chapter 5: Here Tonight

June POV

I woke up and realized that I was in my room.

I was happily ignorant and stupid when I woke up but then reality decided to slap me on the face. I had another episode, I relived the long years of abuse from the pig I call father.

I rubbed my face and grunted of pain for moving my arm, they still hurt, and I felt stiff.

I look at outside and it is still dark. My digital clock reads 3:08 A.M.

I decided to take a shower and do my homework.

Then I stopped on my tracks.

What the hell, I remember being at the restaurant and then Hunter showed up, naked. Why the hell was he there?

I almost let out a cry as I remembered what happened yesterday. I laughed at him, then I scared him, and the last thing I saw about reality was him glaring at me and preparing to kick me.

No, no, no, this just can’t happen, he was going to make me pay and I know. He is probably going to come and hit me personally; my name was probably the first in his list of targets to kill. Oh, no, he probably was at home planning my fall; how I ‘accidentally’ will fall form his company building or how I will ‘accidentally’ break my neck as fall from the top stairs.

This is not happening; my long life that was already a nightmare will become the new toy of the demon himself. 

No, no, no. Panicking right now will not be of any use, so I better shower and finish my homework. I will leave my problems for later.

I sigh as I enter the shower; I remove my bloody bandages as I enter the warm water. I wince as the water touched my cuts.

I hope Dorothea gave a good explanation to my mom. I really own that lady a big favor. I slowly start to relax under the water and the tranquility makes me think.

I clutch my hands and I let the bitter tears travel with the water.

Why me? What wrong have I done? Maybe I really was a waist of space and the world just wanted me to realize it? I wish I could find someone that would tell me every time that I was special that maybe didn’t understood my problems but will always be next to be and pull me up if I fall, why can’t I have someone like that?

My mom didn’t know a thing, he didn’t know that my father and her ex husband  always came on Fridays and Saturdays, she didn’t know that I was bullied, she didn’t know a thing. Dorothea wanted to help me so badly but I always stopped her. She already helped me a lot. She was an old lady so I really can’t afford letting anyone hurt.

I pressed my lips together until I feel them go numb and then let an out a shaky breath. It was just so unjust.

I sighed.

But there are people that have it worst, so I should stop complaining and stand strong.

I stepped out of the shower and entered my room that was freezing, I putted on a pair of pajama bottoms and a baggy t shirt.

I sat down and concentrate on my homework, after a while my mind is just on the homework and that is the only time I don’t want to cut my wrists and end it now.

------School~

I take my shaky steps towards the school and I start to hyperventilate, my hands feel clammy and my breath is short and quick. I will myself to take deep breaths but it seems like the air doesn’t want to enter.

I look around frequently but it seems like the he is not around, aside from the normal crow spitting, cursing, and pushing me around nothing seems out of normal. So I know that he didn’t tell the others to jump at me when I got to school.