Hours passed by and I was still crying my heart out over Lars. I was confused. Lars never reacted like this before. He always had patience for me. Today was so unusual, so unusual to the point that Lars just left me alone.. Left me with no reason, but a ring. His ring. Is this actually the end? Why? I kept crying more as I kept holding the ring. Things were going so well...the fact that I'm carrying three babies, there was no beef with Cathy anymore (well not really), we haven't heard from Marco for 2 weeks, I thought things were getting better.
Eventually there came a knock on the door, "Hello? River?"
I opened the door and it was Ricky. He was carrying Joey's present clueless as he sees my dead face.
"River! Oh my goodness, what's wrong?! Why are you crying? Where's everybody?" He asked worriedly.
"They left..I think Lars is over me." I said softly while my throat begins to get dry and my eyes get watery, "He left...the ring."
Ricky frowned, "For what reason? What did you do?"
"All I did was trying to wake him up because, America was rushing everyone to leave. And..and like.. I tried waking him up and he got so annoyed that he smacked me, and without thinking and being upset, I grabbed his ear and wouldn't let go..and from there he just left without saying goodbye to me..."
"River, darling. Calm down, probably he was only upset, I don't think he meant to leave the ring. Maybe he didn't want to lose it during tour." Ricky said while hugging me, "Look, I'll take you and Joey out for dinner, and we'll celebrate his birthday only us three. What do you think?"
I nodded, "If it isn't a bother."
"Of course it isn't! Just get ready while I talk to little Joey. He must be very upset as well." Ricky said as he left the room.
Ricky Salvaggi's POV
I saw little Joey under the table angrily staring his cake that hasn't even been touched. I went under the table with the present, as he gave me a curious look.
"Hi, Joey. I heard today wasn't a very good day." I said calmly.
"Yeah. Lars hurt my sister. I don't know what to think right now. All I wanted was everyone to say Happy birthday to me." Little Joey said sadly as he moved the cake to the side, "Why did you come so late. I bet if you were here you would've stopped Lars from being a dic.." Before he could even say dick he covered his mouth with surprise, staring right at me.
I laughed, it probably was Joey's first time saying something insulting about someone. I pat him in the head and said, "Don't worry I won't tell anyone. Anyways, I brought your gift. That's why I took too long."
I gave him a huge gift bag. Something of course he would love. Joey with no fear, threw out the tissues of the bag, he checks and then yells, "You bought me a bass!"
"River told me how you've been close with Cliff now, that obviously means that you like to play bass guitar, so I bought you one from my work."
Joey was so pleased. For a little kid like him, his emotions changed so quickly. I honestly was very proud that I was able to do something like this for him.
"Thank you, Ricky! I mean it!" Joey said as he hugged me.
"No need to thank me, Champ. Your sister is getting ready right now because I told her that I was going to take you and her to dinner with me. So we can make up this birthday."
"Great! I'm willing to go. I haven't been talking to River so much. I want to be close again."
River eventually got out of the room, wearing very casual clothes, like she did when we first met. She still looked very depressed, which it actually made me feel bad. I wonder what Lars was actually thinking. Like was he planning this? Was he just trying to abandon her now than later? Like for the love of God! She's almost four months pregnant she shouldn't be going through this right now. Anyways, I got up as well did Joey. Joey, of course, was so eager to show River that he showed it right in her face saying, "Look what Ricky bought me! I'm so happy!"
She just gave a very small smile. She was so hurt. I took her by her arm and helped her walk out. As I promised Lars earlier this month, I wasn't going to leave her behind. Not even in the times like these.
***
Lars Ulrich's POV
We got to Oklahoma City around late six in the afternoon. I took the longest nap throughout the whole flight, which made me relaxed. Though my ear was still in pain, I began to think about Angelica. The fact that I just left her. She believes that I left her because, of what she did. When in reality, it wasn't that...
The guys told me we had ten minutes to get ready. I was worried. For my beloved Pooka. I decided to call her. I didn't want her to think that it was her fault.
As I dialed, I waited impatiently for her to answer. Less than ten seconds, the machine appeared saying the usual, "Please leave your message after the tone. When you have finished recording, hang up or press # for more options" then came a beep.
"Pooka, baby? It's Lars. I just wanted to explain this whole situation." I took a deep breath. I noticed Cathy was coming my way, which meant trouble. So I tried to make this quick, "I wanted to say that it's not your fault on what you have done. I forgive you. I hope you're not hurting yourself. I really hope that you're with Joey and Ricky just venting."
Cathy noticed that I was on the phone that she wrapped her arms around my waist, reaching down for my crotch. Of course! I tried moving but she wouldn't let go. She would try to give me a handjob during the voice mail for River. I tried to end the call quick because I knew that Cathy was trying to do some sort of bullshit.
"Baby, whatever you do, just know that I'll be waiting for a call back and..." Before I even could finish my last few words. The son of a bitch, Cathy had to interrupt by saying words that just fucked up my whole tour already.
"What's taking you so long, daddy? I need more of you before you perform. I know you liked it on the way here, so hurry up!" Cathy said deviously and hung up on the phone before I could even explain.
"What the fuck was that for!" I yelled, "Are you fucking retarded?! I was trying to work shit out with River!"
Cathy didn't say anything but gave me a kiss in the lips and said, "I don't care about her. Now you better get ready for later." Then left to James' dressing room.
"Fuck" I said silently. Then I threw myself to the ground and began to kick like a little kid. I was just so angry that i didn't know how else to fucking explain. I put my hands through my hair and began to think. I began to think about my lady. How we first got together of course. When my clumsy self dropped the glass that one very early morning. How she was so caring like a mother. How she took care of me as if I were her child. The babies of course. They had me much more worried. Like what if she starts drinking again. What if she decides to kill them or herself? How would I know?
As I sat on the ground, I just silently weep. I fucked up, but Cathy fucked it up even more. She was causing so much chaos between me and River. All because she wants sex. My River, just thinking about her being hurt again is just terrible. I knew this shouldn't have been the way. But I fucked it up, after all she has done for me. I fucked it up for her.
"Hey, Lars! We're getting on in three" Kirk said as he headed his way on stage.
I go to my dressing room, and quickly get a few sets of drumsticks from my bag, as I find a note. Of course, it's from River. I quickly open it and skimmed it.
Lars,
When you read this, you will be on your first show of this tour! I'm so proud of you and I hope you have fun. Don't worry about me and Joey, we'll be just fine! Just be careful over your surroundings, and remember once the triplets are born no more cocaine for you okay? You promised, so don't break it! Anyways, I love you dearly, and I hope you and the band do well. Call me everyday if you can. I love you, and never ever forget that.
Love,
Pooka ❤️
As once I finished the note, my heart turned from manly to a baby. All I wanted to do was cry, because I just know I fucked a whole lot. And once River listens to the voice mail, she'll be devastated. I felt guilty, and dead.
She doesn't deserve it.
