Saving me from trouble|l.h. c.t. c.d.

Chapter 52

CECE'S POV

I was woken up by Jamie around 6 in the evening. I can't believe I slept for 5 hours straight. "Nena? How do you feel?" Jamie asked me. I shrugged and didn't look at him. "You need to come down and eat something baby girl. You can't starve yourself or the twins. Come on let's go down" He kissed my cheek. I slowly got up. I went downstairs. "Cece?" Mikey called out. "Yeah?" I sighed. "How are you feeling?" Mikey asked. "Mikey I don't want to talk about what happened at the park....." I said. Mikey hugs me. Maybe I should talk to him. I know he isn't going to pick me over his career. "Nena want some potato with cheese and broccoli?" Jamie asked. I shrugged. "Sweetheart you need to eat for the sake of the babies and your well beings." Vanessa said. I look down at my stomach. "How about if you eat I'll take you out to the pier to get some ice cream?" Fabian tried to convince me. I sighed in defeat. "Fine I'll eat but I really just am so lost in alot of things" I said. "Babe you know you can always come to me or any of us to talk" Mikey said. "I can't be cause you guys see the bad in the situation and you choose for me not to see him cause of the problems but then it's cause you or Ash don't want to see your best friend hurt because of me" I said. "You are my best friend too and so is he I don't like to see neither of you in pain. Neither does Ash" Mikey said softly. 

           I ate the food. Jamie smiled softly at me. "Come on kiddo let's go" Jamie helped me up and kissed my cheek. I got up and we went to the car. I had Miguel in between Fabian and I and Mikey in the back. Vanessa and Jamie were in front. I put in my headphones.  Beside you by Mariana's Trench comes on. 

  "When your tears are spent on your last pretense
And your tired eyes refuse to close and sleep in your defense.
When it's in your spine like you've walked for miles
And the only thing you want is just to be still for a while

If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
I'll be right beside you

When you're overwhelmed and you've lost your breath
When the space between the things you know is blurry nonetheless.
When you try to speak but you make no sound
And the words you want are out of reach but they've never been so loud

If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
I'll be right beside you

I will stay.
Nobody will break you,
Yeah.

Trust in me, trust in me.
Don't pull away
Trust in me, trust in me.
I'm just trying to keep this together,
Because I could do worse and you could do better

Tears are spent on your last pretense
And your tired eyes refuse to close and sleep in your defense.

If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
Nobody will break you

If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
Nobody will break you.  "  the band's voice fills my ears. I quietly hum along.

          

LUKE'S POV

         I am listening to Marianas Trench right now and there's a song that is making me feel alot.  I click on Perfect by Marianas Trench.

"Please sing to me,
I can see you open up to breathe.
Fast words make it easier on me,
If the point is to never disappoint you,
Somebodies got to tell me what to do.
Just wish you could've seen me
When it used to come so easy.
I like to say it's easy to stay
But it's not for me,
Cause I'm barely here at all.

Slow down now, the secrets out.
And I swear now everything is perfect.
What you want, what you need has been killing me.
Try to be everything that you want me to be.
I say yes, I'll undress, I've done more for less.
Now I'll change everything until it's perfect again.

Coming down, coming around,
Giving a frown to the sound when I hit ground.
I hate the way that I say I should say
When I know that I don't give a fuck about it anyway.
Shake hands, and shoot smiles all around,
As I sell my body by the pound.
Sign my name on the dotted line,
It would be fate, to not resuscitate.

Slow down now, the secrets out.
And I swear now I'll still make this perfect.
What you want, what you need has been killing me.
Try to be everything that you want me to be.
I say yes, I'll undress, I'll do more for less.
Now I'll change everything till it's perfect again.

I think it's better this way,
This is good in a bad way.
It's better this way.
I'll make this perfect again.
I'll make this perfect again.

What you want, what you need has been killing me.
And I will change everything you want me to be.
I say yes, I'll undress, I'll do more for less.
Now I'll change everything, whoa yeah.
What you want, what you need has been killing me.
(I'll make this perfect again.)
Try to be everything that you want me to be.
I say yes, I'll undress, I'll do more for less.
Now I'll change everything, I'll make this perfect again." I sing quietly to it. 

        Ben came in my room. "Bro maybe it's for the best" Ben said softly. "I hate that I just want to be there for her and them. But I want to really live this life. You know this was my dream" i said. "I know but sometimes you can't have both Luke you have to make the decision if you want to continue the band or if you want to be with her" Ben said. 

CECE'S POV 

            We got out of the car. I take my headphone's out. I see Liz with a little girl. "Cece?" Liz said. "Hello" I said softly. "Mama Liz Funny running into you here" Mikey said. "Cece, how are you? and Mikey it is" Liz said. "I'm good" I said. I look at my shoes. "Cece can I talk to you alone?" Liz asked. "I don't think that's a good idea" Jamie said. "It's okay Jamie I'll meet up with you guys in there I promise" I said. Jamie looked hesitant but nodded. Everyone left us alone. "Cece I know you and Luke should talk everything out. He is missing you like crazy. He wrote a song about you"  Liz said. "Liz Luke wanted this. He choose his career over us" I said and put a hand on my tummy. "I'm sure if you two just talked it'll be okay" Liz said. "I can't bring myself to look at him it hurts alot" I said. "Maybe text him" Liz suggested. "I'll message him but just please give me some time" I said. "Alright I will give you anytime. I want you to text me whenever you feel like needing to talk to someone" Liz gave me her number. I took it. "I need to get back to my brother but I'll see you around Liz" I hug her and get back to my family.