" babe wake up its time " Mia says . I slowly open my eyes and look at the time . It's 10:00 in the morning . Fuck....I'm not ready.... Today's the rosary and I'm so not prepared . I don't wanna see family members or family friends . I get up and put a nice button up and my black pants . I grab a cross necklace she gave me and put it on . I look at Mia and she looks amazing . She walks towards me and fixes my collar . " Everything will be fine , be strong baby " she says. She kisses me and walks away . Just a couple of more days and me and my baby should be married . It sucks cause my mom can't see it . I sit down on the bed and pull a picture out. I see how beautiful and happy she was . I smile and get snapped out of my thoughts by Mia saying let's go.
We head out to the church and everyone's here. People telling me they're sorry and all that bullshit. I fake a smile and just walk towards the front ignore everyone. I see the casket and damn my heart breaks . I walk up and see her . Damn she looks beautiful . I kiss her forehead and go sit down . The preacher begins his speech and all that fake shit . I stand up and walk to the microphone and try and speak . " Um... thanks for everyone that has came out to show their respect. My mom was something else , she was amazing , gorgeous , and many more . It sucks that she had to leave but God wanted another angel. At least she doesn't have to suffer anymore thank God . " I get caught off . I look closer to see my dad standing by the door. Everyone stops and looks back and looks back at me with a shocked face . I step down and walk towards him . " You don't belong here , I already handled your ass , do I need to again , leave now " I say . He laughs and I give him a look . He steps back and walks away , and leaves . Everyone stares at me and I go sit down .
Hours pass by and it's time to go . Funeral is tomorrow so can't get to comfortable. We head towards the door and walk outside . I see my dad just standing there . " Didn't I tell you to go . You're not welcomed here and I definitely don't want you here." I tell him . He stands up and steps up to me . " Who do you think you're talking too . I can show up if I want" my dad says . I laugh and push him away . Everyone is just watching I see mia in the background giving me this look to stop but I ignore it . " Why are you here huh ? Your hoe's ain't giving you any pussy so you decided just to show . Or ? You're not welcome here and you never will be . If I see you tomorrow or anywhere near this family your ass is dead. " I say . He stares me down and I don't move or anything . " Now leave " I say . He scoffs and walks away . Everyone looks surprised and starts whispering . I grab Mia and we head out .
" What's all that about ?" She asks . I'm heated. My blood is rushing through me . My body temperature is high and I can't think straight. I ignore the question and go to her house . " Aren't you coming ?" She asks . I shake my head and drive off . I don't know where I'm going but I need to be away from everyone . At least for a little .
I pull up to the store to get something and I notice it's the same cashier I met awhile back . She looks up and smiles . " Well look who it is . How are you ?" She asks . I fake a smile and say fine . I grab my bags and head out . I drink a couple of bottles of beer and drive to Mia's . I go there and go straight to bed .
*Next Day*
My alarm goes off and it's the day of the funeral . Oh great.... I get up and get dressed nice . I wake Mia up and tell her to be ready within the hour . I walk down stairs and Mia's mom is cooking breakfast. " Join us ?" She asks . I just stand there and not say a thing. Mia walks up behind me and pushes me to the chair and makes me sit down . I pick at my food . I take a couple of bites and excuse my self from the table . I run to the bathroom and I start to throw up . Oh shit.... it's time to go so I run down and let Mia know . We take off to where she's getting buried .
I see the casket getting lowered into the ground and my heart breaks . My world is almost over . People keep hugging me and it's pissing me off . Hugging me and telling me it's okay isn't going to bring her back . Hours past and everyone is gone. It's just me , Mia and the casket in the ground . It feels as almost she's right beside me but I know it's not true . I wipe the tears and say I love you and head to the car.
The car ride home was real quite . I didn't speak or even look at Mia . I then begin to think to myself that I need to be focused . Me and her Are supposed to be married soon and I have to be tamed . A couple of months will pass and it might be time mia leaves my side too . The doctor's said she only has months to live so . I get thT thought out of my head and just stare at her . She's so beautiful , her eyes , her smile , her laugh , she's just simply perfect And it kills me that this cancer has taken over her . This was the least thing is expect to happen but hey if God wants another angel . Then so be it. You can't fight god and the things he does . All in all he's gonna have the two most beautiful women up there .
We arrive home and we go straight to bed . It's time to just sleep these demons and thoughts away . I close my eyes And fall into a deep sleep.
