Faking it |c.h

thirty nine

Charlie

1:35 PM

Unknown, I hate management

I hate management: Today is your interview. You will explain that you two are now together again and have overcome the problems together. Be ready at 2:30.

He signed the contract.

I close my eyes for a second and take a deep breath. This is happening, again.

All the planned interviews and dates. Those planned dates were the source of me falling for him.

I'm not letting myself get hurt, again.

I can't let the past relive itself and it won't. I'm going to make sure of that.

2:45 PM

I finally arrive to the studio the interview is taking place in.

As soon as I walk in, a petite girl with a headset and a clipboard grabs my arm and begins to explain the procedure I have to follow.

She is pulling me to a chair with my name on the back of it and I take a seat in the chair and makeup brushes are immediately put on my face.

Once they have finished my makeup, I notice a boy sitting next to me. Not just any boy.

Calum.

I gulp as I remember yesterday's events. I hold back on saying anything to him. I'm so mad at him.

He glanced at me and I hear him mumble "Hi"

I ignore him. I hate ignoring him but what he said and did wasn't right.

I can't help but think it's my fault that I lost him though. I was being childish and he realized that he doesn't like girls like me.

Bethany was right.

I shake my head to try and get these thoughts out of my head. They are throwing me off and I can't be like this during the interview.

"We're rolling in 5" the same lady with the headset says to us both before scurrying off.

Five minutes go by quickly as we sit in silence. We've taken our seats beside each other.

The man behind the camera holds his fingers out, showing 3,2,1 and once he says action, Calum grabs my hand in his.

I almost melt until I remind myself it's just for the cameras.

The interview goes quite smoothly. She asks, we answer, as per usual. Calum fiddled his hand a lot in mine, making me nervous.

As soon as the interview is over, I let go of his hand and begin to walk away. I sigh as I miss the feeling.

I can't be around him without it being the way it was. He feels so close yet so far and I don't know what to do.

"Char!" He calls from behind me and I hear his fast footsteps behind me. I don't look back at him but he gets in front of me and grabs my arm.

He takes me to a room ad shuts the door. I cross my arms over my chest and give him a stern look.

"I'm sorry" he mumbles and I feel my features soften. I then raise an eyebrow at him. I want him to say what he's sorry for.

He sighs "I'm sorry for what I said yesterday and how I blew up at you"

"You had no right" I tell him, actually speaking to him. He nods, agreeing with me. He takes a step closer to me.

This boy is so confusing. One second he's calling me a whore and telling
me how he doesn't 'do this shit' and the next he's apologizing and looks like a lost puppy.

I look down at my shoes. "Char" I feel his fingers under my chin, pushing my head up gently.

"Stop it" I whisper. "Stop what?" He asks.

"Stop confusing me" I blurt out then pull my lips into a thin line. "I can't help it" he sighs.

Calum

7:34

As I lay down on my coach, I think about how confused I am. I fucking love her and I don't know what to do.

I don't know if I should give it another try, I know we both want each other so badly. I see it in her eyes every single time I look at her.

But I don't want to get hurt and most importantly, I don't want to hurt her.

I'm an ass but I'm so selfish that I want to call her mine again.

It's just not that simple. She slept with one of my best friends, I cheated on her, I told her that I don't want her and I let Bethany get into her head.

We continuously hurt one another.

We're so bad but so good for each other. I need her but she doesn't need me. She deserves better than me.