Years later.
I sat on a bar stool feeling someone putting a hand on my shoulder
"Can I buy you a drink?" The guy asked smiling
"Do i know you?" I asked smiling
But i should've have asked that question
I already knew the answer to it.
Those eyes.
"I think you do" he whispered smiling
I nodded "I think I do"
He sat down next to me and studied my face
"You are even prettier than the last time I saw you" he chuckled i smiled at him
"Cheers, matty" I whispered
"You alright? How's life since the last time I saw you?" He asked ordering a whine
"Good, it's been like what? Three years?" I asked him he nodded "you got yourself a boyfriend than?" He winked i shook my head
"Last time was two years ago" I whispered
He chuckled "aye!" He said
"I'm just complete now i think" I whispered
But deep down i know i was lying
I wasn't complete, something was missing
"Really?" He asked I nodded smiling
- 4:00 am
I turned around in my bed
I couldn't sleep
I opened my eyes and grabbed my trousers
"I'm not complete" I whispered to myself
I lighted a cigarette
"What is wrong with me!" I yelled
Tears rolled down my cheek
It was like this nearly every night
I sat down on my bed again and looked at the wall, I called Maddie straight away asking her to come over
And she did, she always did.
"Oh love what's wrong?" She asked me helping me up "it's the same thing" I whispered
"You gotta talk to someone about this" she whispered wiping my tears away
"I can't- nobody understands" I whispered
She knitted her eyebrows together looking at me "you sure?" She asked me
I shook my head
"I need to talk with my brother"
- 8:15 am
"Think about it, since when do you feel like this?" He asked me
I swallowed "since a couple years ago"
He nodded looking at me
"Think about this feeling, why don't you feel complete? Is it cause of someone or something?" He asked me standing up
I knitted my eyebrows together looking at the ground "I- I don't know" I whispered
"You sure?" He asked me
I looked at him "what did happen a couple years ago? You remember?" He asked
I turned my head to look outside and closed my eyes
I swallowed, i remembered it all.
It was someone and i knew what i was going to do.
- 7:30 pm
"You sure about this?" Maddie asked
I nodded with a weak smile showing my dimples off "I just hope you know where your going and you sure that's the right place" she whispered i nodded hugging her
"Don't worry about me"
She sighed and broke away from the hug studying my face "now go, you don't wanna miss ya flight mate" she chuckled
"Take care, Maddie" I said she nodded
"Take care, Lacey" she whispered
I walked towards the gates and got on the plane.
I closed my eyes and tried to sleep.
- 9:00 pm
I walked into the hotel
I took a deep breath
Walked into the lift and waited for the doors to open.
I got out and whispered the number to myself.
I pulled my arm up and made a fist
I closed my eyes for a second
I nodded to myself
I looked like a mess, tears running down my cheeks, make up running over my face.
I sighed and knocked on the door.
The door opened after a few seconds.
I took a step back and watched the person looking at me.
My heart started beating faster and faster.
"I'm here" I said shaking handing him the letter he looked shocked
"He couldn't treat me right, i don't feel like i belong to him and he doesn't look at me like you used to" I said with a pause, a tear escaping my eye
He stood there in the door way looking at me
"I don't feel like i can- I don't think i will love anyone apart from you and i didn't realize that until last night" I said shaking my head not breaking eye contact with him
"I want to sit in your kitchen smoking fags while you holding your hand, your right, that's how it supposed to be" I whispered with a weak smile
"I want you to show me to your dad and tell me you want to marry me, that's what I want" I said with another tear rolling down my cheek
"I feel wrong, i chose the wrong man" I whispered
"I love you van, and i want to grow old with you" I said
I could feel my heart fall out of my chest
It was so quiet that i could hear him breath
He walked towards me and got close to my face
I closed my eyes
"All I really ever want is you" he whispered
| the end |
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The end.
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