R.I.P. My Holtzmann Heart

doubts

*continuation of "lucky" *

Holtzmann's POV

My heart beats and my nerves skyrocket as I sit patiently in this seat. I shouldn't be the one that's nervous but I can't help it. I always get so excited when I watch Bri perform.

"Nervous?" Alex asks

"a little" I smile "what's taking so long, I want to see her already"

"5 minutes left" he says checking the time on his phone

"Ever get tired of coming to these shows?" I ask

"of course not. even though I've pretty much been doing it all my life, I love watching her dance. She did always steal the attention from our family though. Which is funny because she didn't care for it. I was the attention whore of the two" he explains

I can definitely see that.

Alex's girlfriend taps on his shoulder asking him something leaving me to stare at these mocking red curtains.

I can hear the music start and my heart is honestly about to come out of my chest. The curtains open revealing a male dancer standing alone. He dances beautifully but my full attention veers from him when I see Bri step on stage in a beautiful white costume. God she's gorgeous.

She dances to him, every step just as perfect as her. They join in the center and he lifts her and she turns and it's beautiful. She's so breathtaking, so elegant. I'm in complete awe of the rare beauty that is my girlfriend.

The show progresses and as suspected, it was amazing. They're always amazing if I'm being honest but my opinion might be a tad biased since the only person I look at is Bri.

The show ends and my heart flutters with love and joy and all I want to do is give my baby a big hug.

"I wish our mom and dad could have come to see Bri" alex says "They haven't seen her dance in years"

"why didn't they come?" I ask

"I don't know. Work? Expensive plane tickets? Something around that area"

We exit the theatre and I see all of the dancers in a line where you can take pictures with them or get an autograph or some shit. I don't really know.

In the end are the main dancers Bri and her partner Christian. I take a second to look at them and can't help but think what a good couple they would be. He's tall, muscular, tan. The complete opposite of me actually. Yet with Bri smiling next to him they look like an actual couple. Like the star couple that's just too good to be true.

Imagine how easier their lives would be. Imagine how accepted she would feel compared to when she tells people that she's with me. How satisfied her parents would be to see her with a man. Imagine all the things he could give her that I can't.

Christians arm wraps around Bri's torso pulling her closer to him and flashing a smile. Everyone loves them. I watch Bri smile and politely talk to people praising her and literally showering her with bouquets of flowers.

"what are you waiting for dude, go with her" Alex says

I take a deep breath and nod. I need to stop thinking so much. My mind is a jumbled mess.

I walk to her and the minute Bri makes eye contact with me a genuine smile spreads across her face. She hands all her flowers to Christian and runs towards me eventually jumping and clinging onto me nearly causing me to fall over. Her lips kiss me over and over again and I am over the roof. I am in pure bliss and soon all of my doubting thoughts from earlier are gone. Completely vanished by this beautiful girl clinging onto me as if we're the only things that matter right now.

Because frankly, we are.

a/n\\ Hey hi this was kinda short and idk if I like it, it was different in my mind.

I keep watching videos of Kate and i play them on the tv and I'm pretty sure my mom is tired of my gay ass but she's too polite to say anything oops.

SOOO uhhh yeaaa idk what else to say but CAN SEASON 42 OF SNL BE HERE ALREADY LIKE I CANT KEEP REWATCHING THE SAME SHIT LIKE PLS HELP