Wallflower (MILES X ALYA)

01

ALYA'S POV

I guide myself through the familiar hallways of Keaton, the halls that normally seem bright and lively, but today seem to be dull and depressing. I hear people whispering and saying "aww". I turn around and of course, there they are. Miles and Julie, Keaton's perfect couple and everyone's OTP. Except mine of course.

Keep yourself together Alya. Keep it together.

Miles eventually breaks away from Julie and comes over to me.

"Hey! Are you ready for that performance today?" He asks me, referring to the duet we have to perform for Mr. Park today.

"Yep!" I reply, keeping my answer short because I know if I talk too much I'll cry.

"You and I, we're gonna kill it." He says, while putting his arm around me.

I instantly feel my cheeks heat up and my breathing stop for a second. Why does he torture me by only being a friend when he does things like this? He has no idea the kind of effect these things have on me.

"Yeah, definitely." I say, with my voice cracking a little at the end.

He notices and looks at me strangely for a second, but soon returns to his previous self.

We eventually make it to Mr. Park's room, and Miles removes his arm. I instantly feel like something is missing. Wait, I shouldn't even be thinking these things. I'm only Alya, and Miles has Julie. The Julie Maslany. She has everything a guy could want, and well... look at me.

I take my usual seat, and feel my heart beating out of my chest. Performing, auditioning, or even just singing in front of a group of people still makes me incredibly distressed. I know I need to get over it if I ever want to land a role somewhere. Like Da Boheme. Thinking about that audition experience practically makes me shrivel up in my chair. As everyone expected, I froze up. I ruined my chances of ever getting any big role. I'm a mess.

These thoughts consume my head for a good fifteen minutes of class, and I struggle to fight back the stinging tears that are waiting to fall off the edge of my eyelid.

"Next up: Miles and Alya!" Mr. Park announces, interrupting my brief tearful session.

Miles and I stroll up to the front of the classroom, and I begin to hiccup repeatedly. I guess Miles can sense I'm nervous because he slides his hand across my back and rubs circles, in an attempt to soothe me. It works though. Miles could literally just look at me, and I would immediately forget about all my problems just for a second.

He leans in and whispers, "Calm down, you can do this."

Just feeling his breath on my ear makes me tremble. Still, his voice soothes me even more and I feel prepared to perform now. He begins strumming his guitar, and the words instantly pop into my head. We're singing "Dig Deep", our song. Wow, it feels good to say that. Our song.

Our voices harmonize together just like we practiced and all the worry I previously had feels like it just melted away. The class seems to be impressed, and so does Mr. Park. I guess it was a success.

After class, I go about my school day with things being awfully boring and dull as they usually are. Of course, they seem a lot duller today.

The end of the school day doesn't come soon enough, but when it does I start to cross the street, beginning the daily walk back home. Only this time, it seems much worse. That's because up ahead of me are, well... you guessed it I guess. Miles and Julie. Again.

I see the way he laughs at her jokes, and smiles when he holds her hand. How much longer can I take this?

I soon reach my home, still looking at the happy couple when I open my front door. I immediately walk upstairs to my room, not planning to ever come back down.

The comfortable bed laying in my room engulfs me in its soft blankets, and allows me to finally let everything out. I can't help it, I break down. The sobs rack my body so violently, I'm in pain. My mascara has traveled from my eyes to all over my pillow, and my little amount of happiness left has faded into oblivion.

A/N

Hey guys! I really hope you liked the first chapter, I was actually pretty happy with how it turned out. Anyways, please vote and comment because I love hearing what my readers have to say! I hope you all have a wonderful day!