Dairy Of A Twenties Kid

Personal Dairy, Of A Twenties Kid.

I have been in the bed for the last two days, without a bath. The door has been only opened once, for bringing in food. I have become this rat in the hole for some time now. I don't know when it started or why, i just kept on going the way i felt like going on. I have missed three days long classes because i felt afraid of going out and facing people and sitting amongst them for all day long. I am just afraid of that fact even without having a reason. I know this is not what i should be doing, but I am feeling too down to get up and get stuff started. I may have become very lazy, for there is no other explanation. I have to get out of this place, and do something. I am too afraid of thinking happy thoughts because they will make me realize how stupidly I am living, and how i must pull up my socks, as its high time, but I am not getting the inspiration. Though I am sure i will have to work towards it. And everything shall fall back into the right places. I will be writing all the crazy things that i think of, and dream of becoming and doing... I am an introvert, intelligent, clever and average looking person. But i know my attributes too well to think I am anything less that a jewel. I don't have much friends but when i see people i see them thoroughly, and its difficult for me to get deceived by appearances, the reason why i have select few people who i can talk to. I am just saving myself from whats out there, in the world, the cunningness, selfishness, cruelty and insensitivity of people.. I will become some one i want to be, wanna join that journey, and see for yourself, if that happens or does it just fade away like any other new year resolution. But I am adamant, i shall change, and i will... Wanna see how?