Another wave of pain wracked my body and I dropped the phone with a piercing scream.
"Shane! Drive FUCKING FASTER!" I wailed, tears springing to my eyes. I try to reach the phone, to reach Matt but I can't reach it.
"We're almost there." Lisa says from the backseat trying to soothe me. I'm screaming Matt's name trying to will him here with my mind alone.
"Come on." The car stops and Shane is pulling me out, trying to get me to the doors. He shouts at Lisa to get the phone while I try to move my feet but its no use.
"Matt. Matt I can't make it." I gasp hands groping for my lover before I realize he's not here. "W-wha? Where-"
"He's on his way Sarra." Shane says struggling to lift me again his adrenaline drained after the car ride, desperate to make it the last few feet to the hospital. "Help!" He calls out as soon as he gets the door open. The secretary is calling for a doctor and several nurses rush over to Shane and whisk me away into a wheelchair. I'm screaming again because the sudden movement has brought extra pain and I cant find Shane. I'm surrounded by a sea of unfamiliar faces. But then I hear Shane's voice talking to someone, telling them everything.
"Shane! Shane!" I pant, trying to regain my breath, to stop myself from screaming. "My baby! What's happening to my baby?" Shane tries to explain what's happening but I can't really hear anything over the voices in my head screaming at me that my little boy was no more.
"Matt! Matt!" I sob. I am rushed into a white room, white walls, white bed, white table, white chairs.
"We need to get the baby out of her."
"A Cesarean section?"
"I'm afraid so, I see no way around it."
"We'll give her a half an hour and if there is no change it's going to have to be done."
"Is the father here?"
"He's just outside, over there.
"Matt! Matty!" I wail, searching desperately but all I can find is Shane.
"He's coming, I promise, you need to calm down."
"I can't! Where is he! He swore he'd be here!" I sob as Shane wraps his arms around me. After a bit I can here arguing out in the halls.
"Sir! The father is already in there, you need to wait out here."
"The hell he is!"
"Matt!" I scream, attempting to get to the door so I can see him. Several nurses push me back in the bed, trying to contain me.
"We'll need to sedate her if she doesn't calm down."
"She could hurt herself!"
"Or the baby."
"Matt! Where's my husband?"
"He's right here ma'm"
"No, no hes not." I sob.
"I'm not the father or her husband." Shane explains before he is rushed out of the room and I am left in a sea of unknown faces.
"No! Don't leave me!"
"SEDATE HER DAMN IT!"
"Sarra, breathe, i'm here, its ok."
"Matt, Matt." He pulls me too his chest and I finally relax for the first time that night.
"How are you? Hows the baby? What did I miss? I'm so sorry. I'm sorry." The doctors and nurses bustle around us but I just have no effort to keep up with the rush.
"I'm scared."
"I know."
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I'm So Sorry (On Hold)
Fanfiction"Matt what are we going to do?" "Don't worry Sarra, we'll work through it. Just like we always do." "Maybe not this time Matt. I don't think that we can go on after all that's happened."
