Give Me Love (Camren)

~I~

Hey, Camz.
I, I know this is… out of the blue, awkward, maybe, but here’s a letter from me, to you.

I guess I’m supposed to be happy for you, and I am, really, but sometimes I wish I could reverse time. I would reverse it to the day when it all ended.
We were together only for six months, but I felt like they were a few years, decades, even. Those few months were the best times of my life.

I never loved someone so much to the point of heartache as much as you.
You were my everything.
You were the one who cheered me up when I was feeling down.

You were the one who was there for me when I experienced hard times.
You were the one who always brought a smile to my face every time I see you.

You were the one who made me feel a spark when we kissed.
You are my everything.
When I first saw you, I immediately fell in love with you.

And I still remember what I asked you. “Are you an angel?” You looked at me with your beautiful brown orbs and answered, “Not that I am aware of.” And I said, “Oh. Well, you look like you just fell out from heaven.” You blinked, laughed and said that I was such a cheesy person. Because of that unintended cheesy pick-up line, we became friends, best friends and more than that.

I remember the first time I told you that I was yours, and you told me that you were mine. The first time we kissed; your first kiss. Sparks flew when your lips touched mine. I wanted time to freeze and remain like that forever.

You are no longer mine. You are his. I know we’re a thousand miles apart, but we should have held on to the very end. We could have tried to continue this special thing we had. But you knew, didn’t you? You knew that you couldn’t do it. You knew that I couldn’t take it, that I needed you to be near me always.

Every time I see you, I get breathless. You take my breath away with your absolute beauty, physically and mentally. I love you from your head to toe, inside and out. I love your perfections and imperfections.
You did the same for me.

You loved me despite of my many flaws, and I remember how you would protest when I said that. You would say, “You’re beautiful, Lauren Jauregui, inside and out. I can list out your imperfections with the fingers I have on one hand, and countless perfections with a calculator. I love you, and that’s all that matters to me.”

The song that described us was All Of Me. Now, the song describes me is Amnesia.

The first time I heard that song while I was in the car, I started to cry. Yes. My tears came without warning.

I watched the music video for it. Amidst my tears, I couldn’t help but think that our time together, the past and the present, would be perfect as a video for Amnesia.

I miss you.

I still keep all your photos in my phone. I couldn’t bring myself to delete them. I’ll admit that I like to see them. I love to relieve our past memories together.