Unwanted

T W E N T Y - F I V E

"Would anyone like to go next ?" Arelis asks wiping a tear from her eye with a sniffle.

It was silent for a second and everyone just looked at each-other really awkwardly.Then super shyly,Ryder raises his hand.

"Go ahead" Arelis says.

The group turnt their heads towards Ryder.He positioned himself and cleared his throat and began his story.

"Well, I guess my version of love was a couple years ago.I never really felt that feeling before because I never got the attention or care at home.The adrenaline when I saw her was breath-taking.She was the image of perfection."

The only thoughts that ran into my mind was how I could never compare to this girl he loved so much before.If Ariel was the idea of perfection, then I am no closer to getting Ryder.

"She attended Ivy during freshman year , I never looked at her that way until she bumped into me in the dormitories.She has this sparkle in her eye that I never quite seen before.I began introducing her to my friends and that's when she slept with every one of them.I never expected her to do that, especially not with my closest friends, but to be fair nobody knew how I felt about her.I think even Lux slept with her"

The group turnt to lux who had a big smirk on her face and arms crossed.

"Whaaat?" She asks innocently.

"Anyway" Arelis retorts "back to the story"

"Yea um,after that I didn't want her to constantly do that and disrespect herself but you can't control people and their choices.I made a little home made date in our dorms secretly and we kissed.After that night we had been on and off because we had petty arguments about our opinions on politics and our religion.Then, one time we were off and she started to hang out with one of my friends a little more than usual"

It was discreet but he slowly looked at Hunter back and forth as he explains his story.

"They began getting high and soon she was addicted.I tried to warn her and stop her and get her back to me but she was out of control.I told her I loved her and I knew she loved me back but she never said anything.Then the sooner I knew it, she was gone.She wasn't even a student at the school anymore.I missed her for so many months.Just like Arelis' story in a way, She died from a overdose from drugs that was sold to her by one of my friends..."

The groups slightly glances at Hunter, as if they all knew it was him.

"I still don't forgive him deep inside.He has her blood on his hands"

All of a sudden,Hunter stands up and leaves the circle.

"Hunter!" I shout after him but he continued to walk away.He was mad as hell and everybody in the room knew he had something to do with Ariel's death.

I felt like running after him.Even though he's irritating and aggravates the shit out of me, he doesn't deserve to be put on the spot like that.I know that there is a reasonable answer to all of these assumptions.The one thing I noticed out of all of this is that,Ryder never said for sure he knew that he died.Ryder only knows this because Hunter came out and told him the 'truth' all those years ago.

Somebody was hiding something.

I decided to not go after Hunter.He'd be better off letting off some steam on his own rather than taking it all out on me.

Tonight there is a dinner planned for everyone at 8pm and then curfew is still 10pm.

Ryder asked me to meet him before dinner so I decided to dress up a little.

I applied the little bits of mascara I managed to bring with me and stained my lips of cherry red.I tinted my eyelids with sparkles and my eyebrows with Anastasia pomade cream.

I shift myself into a black short and very tight dress.I zip on my long black heel boots and put on a couple dangly necklaces and shiny bracelets.The hoops I entered into my ear were bigger than I had thought but I wore than anyway.

For the first time in a long time, I felt pretty.
I walked out my room and was heading towards the cafeteria  to meet Ryder when I bumped into blondie.

He looked as if he was in distress so I asks him "are you okay?"

He shook his head and drooped it down.

I slowly put my hand on his cheek.Hunter was never there for me but he really brought out my better side.Although he was rude, selfish and made irrational decisions, I could tell he had more empathy in him than I did.

I continue to caress him and he looks up at me.He looks into my eyes deeply meanwhile his eyes began dilating.We couldn't keep our eyes off each other .Did I forget to mention how good he looked? Even with conflict on his mind and messy hair from running his hands through it.I stepped a little closer and his hand reached my slim waist.His lips were pinkish and screamed juicy.I wanted to suck on them because of how plump they were.

Then for the first time I could've had something with actual passion.

Actual feelings.

Yet, I couldn't do it.I pulled away and I felt his hand lose grasp of my waist.My hand left his cheek and I traveled down the hall.In the corner of my eye I saw him, he stood in the hallway and watched me walk down with the worst expression on his face.

After everything Ryder had been through with Ariel, I didn't want to be the same person.I wasn't that type of person at all.Im not going to toy with a bunch of guys in the same friend group.It gives you a bad reputation and I wasn't for it.Although Hunter and I wanted the same thing, I couldn't give in.

I enter the Cafeteria and hear whispers of a guy and girl.Their voices were familiar and Ryder's voice I recognized all too well.Ryder sounded as if he was in distraught.

His happiness was all I was thinking about.

I peep my head closer into the cafeteria and saw him,Lux and Maddox discussing something seriously.

Ryder was dressed as formal as I was.A button down and a black tie, along with dress pants and shoes.His hair had gel in it to spike it a little and his shoulders looked broader than ever.He had anxiety written all over his face and I didn't understand why.

Maddox and Lux were plotting against me harshly, I hope Ryder didn't believe a thing they said.

I regretted not staying in that hallway longer.Was I really meant to see this conversation go down? Why couldn't I just let Hunter be my distraction for a while?!

Then as if he could feel me staring at him, Ryder caught my eye.