How many times do I have to scream at myself not to listen?
How many times do I have to bang my head against the wall to try make you disappear?
Do you thrive on my weakness?
I am angry
Angry at myself
Angry at others
Angry at you.
Please, why can't you just leave me alone?
I beg you
Why did you have to choose me?
Do you hate me this much?
Why can't I close my eyes
count to three
and wake up like you never even existed?
Set me free
God I beg you
Set me free I whisper into the winters air
There's monster everywhere
They surround me in the darkness
Rustling the leaves
I'm spinning around around
But I'm tripping, hurtling to the ground
Circling me
They punch war wounds into my skin.
These monsters are here everyday
Hiding in the undergrowth
Bullying me
Till the day I finally give up.
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