YG One Shot Stories

Author-nim Sentiments

November 25,2016

Annyeong haseyo!

It's been a while since I wrote here. I didn't update another stories. Sorry for that I'm really busy and have no time for writing. But what I want to write in here is what I feel right now. I still don't know where to start.

I can't remember when I publish the last update. Months? Or a year? But in that period many things happened in my fam. I mean my YG fam. Should I enumerate them?

👉Seven and Gummy left YG
👉iKON's debut
👉BIGBANG, WINNER, LEE HI, AKMU'S comeback
👉Minzy left 2ne1
👉SECHSKIES joined YG ent
👉BLACKPINK's debut
👉BIGBANG MADE FULL ALBUM
👉TOP confirmed military enlistment
(These are just the most dominant YG happenings)

And now what I am up to is 2NE1 DISBANDMENT and NAM TAE HYUN leaving WINNER.

It's just too much pain that I burst into tears. I was at the mall with my friends when one of them showed me an article of 2ne1 disbandment. I quickly checked my SNS to confirmed and that's when it shook me. Everything in my newsfeed was all about 2ne1 and Nam Tae Hyun. I just can't cry in front of them. It doesn't make sense. They will just laugh at me when I do such thing. So I tried not to. My friends were discussing things but I'm really spacing out. I don't know if I should go home or not. When they were enjoying their convos I just faked laugh but my attention is all on my phone. Reading articles, my KPOP friends rants, sentiments and such.

I just can't explain how I feel right now. It maybe exaggerated but it felt like thorns where squishing my heart. My mind went blank. I still can't process on what's happening right now. Was it just a dream? A nightmare? I don't know, nothing sinks in my mind.

I went home and headed straight to my room. And then tears just came out like they have a life to just flow out in my eyes without my permission. I cried for who knows how many minutes. But what worst is, even I cry it out, the pain is still there. It's really torturing me. This may be exaggerated or some of you might say I just made up this stories, I tell you with my busy sched I will not waste time writing these shits if it's not painful.

Why I publish these damn sentiments of mine?

I just want someone to also feel what I feel right now. A YG stan that will understand what I feel.

So this is the feeling of being broken? That feeling when you give your love to them, wait and trust that they will come back. But ended up leaving. It hurts like hell.

I JUST CAN'T UNDERSTAND YANG HYUN SUK RIGHT NOW. How can he let these things happened? He has the authority, the control. He can talk to these girls to renew contract (Bom and Minzy). And what I'm raging right now is Nam Tae Hyun. How can he removed Nam tae because of his mental issue. For good? What the fuck is that. THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I HATE YG. I always trust his decision because I know he may have good plans. BUT THESE THINGS ARE JUST BULLSHIT.

However, I came to realize, Yang hyun suk is not the CEO of YG anymore. I mean, he's still helping in managing YG. But Yang Min Suk, his brother, is the new CEO. And after he sits on the throne, YG ent started to fucked up. They're just into money. They just let go of their artist who can't make a money for them. (Sorry, I just want someone to blame because I still can't accept these facts ✌)

I'm sorry for cursing but I can't help it. I'm so devastated that I don't know who to blame. If I should keep holding on or should I let them go. This is fcking hard than answering my NMAT exam.

Now, I feel better after letting this all out. Thank you for hearing my heart. The truth is, I have short stories for this compilation. I have TOP-BOM story that is almost finished. I started the DARAGON story but I ended up forgetting the plot. I really have many plans for these, I have more OTPs stories but I can't make it. Except for my busy sched, it doesn't make sense anymore.

I'm graduating and I'll enter Med school. It will be tough so I decided to quit being an active KPOP fan but still support my fandom. But what happened today, I came to realize that my KPOP life would not be like of what I started 5 years ago. KPOP will not be exciting if there's no 2ne1. Winner song will not that be nice to listen if there's no Namtae's sweet voice. To be honest, if it's not for BIGBANG, I already said bye to the KPOP world right now.

I just want also to hear your thoughts guys. It feels really good if you let out of it. Let me know I'll read them on the comment.

Thank you for giving your time to read this. A fandom hug to all of you. 아~ 좋다! *sigh*