Always

Chapter 24

Fall To Pieces-Avril Lavinge

Losing Grip- Avril Lavinge

Rosie's POV:

I woke up wondering where I am. I look around to see it's my bedroom. My eyes burn so bad from the crying. It's almost seven in the afternoon. A few hours since Louis broke up with me. I still can't believe this has happened. I can't even cry anymore my tear ducts are dried up. I sit up from my bed and look around. I look over to my phone.. No new messages. I lay back down on my bed, I don't want to deal with anyone tonight. I'm just so lost in this I don't know what to do.

I turn on music.. It's the only escape I can get when I'm awake. Pandora is trying to kill me by playing Little Things by the boys come on.

I lose it. I fucking bawl my eyes out once again. I hear a knock on the door.

" Ros-" my mom begins to say

" Get out! Get the hell out!" I scream and run over to the door to slam it on her face.

I run over to the wall that has pictures of Louis and I on there. I rip them down from my wall. I didn't realize all the cuss words I was screaming until my dad started banging on the door. I ignore it. I don't care. How could he fucking do this to me? I'm no longer sad but filled with complete hatred and anger for Louis at the moment.

" How could you do this!" I scream at the poster if Louis as I rip it down. " I hate you.." I choke up and my tears overflow my eyes.

I lean my back to the wall and sit on my floor.. I rip up every little poster I had of him on my wall, but the pictures I can't seem to rip up. It kills me.. I look down at the pictures, we looked so happy.

Fuck.

I hear a knock on my door..

" Rosie babe?" A soft voice says through the door. It's Scarlett.

" I can't." I cry

" Let me in please.." She says calmly.

I take a deep breath and stand up. I walk over to the door to unlock it but not open it.. She gets the point and walks in.

" He-" I start to say

" I know.." She cuts me off. " I'm so sorry Ro" she says with pure sadness in her tone.

"I-i hate him Scar, He didn't even give me a chance.." I cry

" I know.. I know." She says and hugs me. I can't even move my whole body is numb.. I probably made myself go into an anxiety attack when I threw the fit.. My whole body is tingling and my muscles feel heavy.

"Who all knows.." I catch my breath from crying to ask.

" Just Niall and I.. From what I know.. He called Niall.. Pretty upset." Scar says.

" Where's Niall staying.." I ask.

" With him.. So they can fly out together.." She starts to choke up.

" I'm sorry." I say " I know things are hard for you and in being selfish." I add rubbing my eyes from the burning.

" You're not being selfish Rosie. Don't ever think that. I'm glad I can be here for you." She smiles.

" Do you need anything?" Scarlett asks.

I shake my head no.. I don't want anything at the moment. " I'm just exhausted.." I say honestly.

" Get some rest.. I'm gonna go talk to your mum if you don't mind?" She asks.

" Ok." I say and lay down in my bed and drift off into sleep.

Louis POV:

My family's face when I told them that Rosie and I have broken up seemed like I broke up with them. My mom actually cried.. I didn't think it would be like this I mean I knew they would be bummed but.. I don't know.

" C'mon bro." Niall says as we walk over to the sitting area.

" I think my family hates me right now." I say

" They don't hate ya! Just shocked.. How ya holdin?" He asks.

" I don't quite really know.. I feel like I made the biggest mistake but then I feel like I did a good thing for her." I say.

" Did she say she wanted this?" Niall questions.

" Well no, I mean yes. Fuck I don't know. She had this damn journal on her thoughts and she wrote about how things would be if we didn't dated.. She had stuff even about having a normal relationship and I can't give that to her.." I say putting my hands on my face.

" Well.. Is that all that was written in there?" He asks

" No.. She wrote good things as well but it just seemed like I made her so miserable in this relationship and that's the last thing I wanted to do." I answer honestly.

" I mean.. I see where you're coming from bro. But you know how girls are.. They have emotions way more than us.." He says.

" Yeah.." Is all I can say. " How do you think she's doing?" I ask.

" Um.." Niall says looking down at his phone. " Honestly? Not well.. Scar is over there now." He says quietly.

"Fuck. She will never forgive me for this.." I say.

" I'm going to bed.. You need anything?" I ask

" Nah thanks though. See ya early. Sorry about this situation." Niall says.

" It's alright man. Night." I say and walk to my bedroom.

I've completely fucked everything up. I don't know what to do.. I can't text her right now.. That's probably the last thing she wants to see.. I wouldn't blame her for hating me. What I did was the worst thing I could do.. Break up and then be gone for a few months? What a fucking asshole.

My anger builds quickly before I know I have my computer chair in hand that is now being thrown across the room.

" Fuck." I yell. My mums gonna kill me when she see the new fresh hole in the wall.

I lay on my bed and close my eyes. I can't even get the images out of my head of how I just drove away and she stood there.. Like she was hoping I would come back.. But I didn't.