He looked handsome!
He looked nice!
He always was! , but today! .. He was my man!
"You look stunning"
He whispered into my ear, and I blushed at that
"You too" I whispered back feeling extremely shy
"Thanx my wife" he replied in his mesmerizing voice and I took a deeb breath at that!
I really am becoming his wife!
Im really gonna live with him, the rest of my life!
Just in a few hours!
Just with a few words!
I'll be his! .. and he'll be mine!
I felt my breathing hitch, why is it hard to breath!
I clutched his hand as hard as I could steadying my shaking stance.
I breathed a couple more breaths, but they didn't seem willing to calm. I felt him wrap his arm around my waist and pulling me into his chest.
"The dress!" I whispered to him as I smoothed nonexistent creases on my white dress.
I smiled foolishly at my white dress, feeling unusual happiness fill my insides.
"I love you" I told him as I planted a soft kiss on his cheek
"Shall we go, my dear bride?" He asked as he opened the passenger's door of his white porsche.
I pulled up my dress, softly slipping in , afraid I might ruin my treasure!, the sign of our forever bond!.
He turned the car mirror, checking his appearance as I delightfully stared at him, taking in his features.
He wore a black suit with a red tie, that matched my flowers, and the fine streak around my waist.
His hair was tousled, his light brown eyes glinting with happiness!
I looked through the window, glancing at the white ground smiling!
My dress resembled those snow flakes!
The world looked like it was celebrating our wedding with us!
The snow filled ground twinkled like Christmas lights!
The dried petals of trees danced as they fell to the ground!
The cold wind hissed and whistled in a beautiful sound!
Even the road signs, had a musical rhythm while flashing lights!
He was my man!
"Getting restless?" I asked with a soft chuckle as he fidgeted on his seat.
"Yeah.. alittle" he answered his voice dry.
I chuckled alittle, then lent in planting another kiss on his cheek.
I remember how soft and heartwarming it felt, but before I knew it, the sign flashed green in the corner of my eye, and strong blinding lights flashed bright!
I heard a deafening ponk and tires screeching, then something crash.
And everything, became white!
***
White was never a color of love!
It's the color of oblivion!
Uncertainty!
Unknowing!
It's the color of non-memories! Amnesias curse!
It's the color of nonexistence!
Non-endless-ness
It's the color of coffins!
It's the color of the dress of my farewels!
It's the color of the dress that declared our forever love!
It's the color I choose to be in when we say our vows!
When we become forever bound!
But , forevers turned out to be too short!
For , It's the very same color I wore! .. for his funeral!
It's the Color of the oppressive snow!
It's the color im sure his beautiful eyes saw!
***
I wailed, I yelled! I cried my eyes out!
I remember his beautiful brown eyes glint with happiness then go wide!
I heard his body get crushed as shock crushed mine!
I saw his red tie splash his whole body with it's magnificent red in a blink of an eye!
I remember my manicured fingers hopelessly clutching his hands!
But .. who is he!
"Come baaaack"
"Please come back"
"Don't leave me"
"Please don't go"
I cried in my raspy strained voice!
But they don't hear me!
Why wouldn't they listen to my words!
"Don't Don't"
I hurried into that hole those people dug!
I don't know what they're doing, but whatever it is! .. I don't want that!
The man ignored my words and kept on littering the sand on that hole!
"Naaaaah" I screeched tiredly as I heard several sobs, then sprinted outside!
I don't know how many days,weeks, years have passed with me in this snow flake white dress!
It's stale, flimsy, and dirty, but , I can't seem to strip out of it!
I don't know how many days have went, with me going around in bare feets!
I don't know how many times have I gone to that weird place with black dressed crying people
3 ! .. 5! .. 10!
I don't know!
I just know that I've lost something in there!
And whenever I try to remember what it is!
Lights flash in my head! .. ponks ring in my ears! and!
And, everything goes, just .. white!
White!
And I hate white!!!
THE END!
