Don't wake me up

Fade away

I opened my eyes as I looked for her, but nothing was seen, it was just dark and dark, I searched the deep water for her  and all of sudden, I noticed a little blue piece shinning right there at the bottom , wait a second that’s her necklace,   I let out a fake sigh of relief, just to remind you we’re under the water and the air I saved in my lungs started fading and the water started getting to them not to mention the pain that still remind me now and then of its presence each second I would do any simple move and it was unsupportable, so practically I don’t have no time. I quickly spotted her lying helpless and motionless so close to the bottom. I quickly made my way to her, wrapping my left arm around her torso and her now weak and completely numb body, it rested peacefully there right at the bottom, it was totally fragile not like earlier at the art class, when she was tensed with both my arms around her waist and that little moan that escaped her mouth was nothing but priceless,  just the thought of that made me smile, how her petite figure fitted in my hands and how she let out that little moan made me satisfied but now wasn’t the time to think about this, I need to get out from this trouble, I pulled her with me, as I made our way to the top, but my open wounds made it really hard and painful, I can’t even move my hand yet grab a person from the bottom of this profoundly river and swim back to the top, you can imagine how  anguished this is but I have to stay strong for myself and most of all stay strong for her.

Finally, I brought us both above water as we reached the top, then I placed her on the grass, and I sat there gasping for air, I kept looking at her, waiting for her to make any sort of move, to assure me that she is okay, to confirm that she is breathing, but there was nothing, she seemed like a death body, she seemed so death with her pale face and blue lips, the water was cold so this isn’t surprising, I quick brought my hands to her chest and placed them where her heart should be, then I started pumping  lightly hoping to revive her heart and bring her back to life, but that wasn’t working at all, I stopped as I searched her body for any pulse but there isn’t any, I tried one more time knowing that it was useless, and will never work, I knew that I should do something else. I brought my head closer and bent over so I was inches away from her face, that sweet smell she had when I was at the same position earlier wasn’t presence anymore, I only smelled the death, then I lifted her head a little bit, I know nothing about what I am doing right now but I’ve seen this on Tv once, when someone wanted to save his friend who has drown, I won’t deny it but at first I felt disgusted and laughed at him but now I can’t help but do the same, I am ready to do  anything, no matter what is it and I simply don’t care besides she is a girl so it won’t be that hard right? I just need to save her right now.

I brought my lips and connected them with her cold, lifeless and blue lips, then I followed the instructions I still have stuck in my head thank god, but I have to say that I am panicking, I mean there’s been a while and I am trying and doing this stupid artificial respiration but still there’s nothing, what if she is really death? What if I was just wasting time? I shook these ideas and question out of my head, there’s no way I am giving up, I won’t stop, no I wont, until I get her back to life.

Suddenly she coughed and a huge amount of water left her mouth probably from her lungs, she had her eyes still closed and finally her chest rise up and fell down, finally she was breathing and I let out a completely sigh of relief, she was still alive and that was just great, I sat there catching my breath as I watched how her color began to get back to contrast and her lips transformed into their regular shade of pink. As much as I loved being here when she would open her eyes, as much as I wanted to see that smile over her face, I couldn’t, I simply couldn’t. although I was happy that she is finally alive and save, I couldn’t fight the anger building up in my veins, she was the reason that this night is ruined , and because of her I didn’t do what I came here to do, and I just got shot and Steve was wandering around proud of his achievement against me once more, she ruined the chance and opportunity to kill the man that killed my life besides I couldn’t bear the pain anymore  in my chest, so I needed to get out of here and go home, I will drink my ass off and get some sleep hoping the pain will simply disappear and go away.