Diary of A Broken Woman

Chapter 41

Dear Diary,

With the new year literally days away, I didn't expect to be bringing it in like this. With so much negativity. So many problems. This is the last thing I wanted and I'm hating it. Its like I try to guide my life in a direction, but it always go a completely different way. I honestly don't know what to do at this point.

                                  Love,
                                        Miranda

"Is that all you needed sissy?"Mia asked as we browsed the school section in Target.

"Yes mam'a."I said with a smile as we finally headed to the register.

We're at Target doing a little school shopping for myself. Yes, I will be starting school very soon. I'm excited and the thought of it brings a smile to my face. I'll will be starting my first semester at college late January. I needed to finally go school shopping for me. Get some notebooks, pens, pencils, binders, just everything I would need for the semester. I was supposed to do this with Trey and I'm a little bummed about that. He's been the one on me about going shopping and now he's not even here to do it with me.

Once we got to the register, I got all the things unloaded and waited patiently for the clerk to ring everything up.

"Ouu M, you should make chicken parm tonight."Kayla requested with that grin she had whenever she spoke on food.

"Yeah you should, that stuff be good."DJ added with a smile.

"Chicken parm it is then."I said with a smile, looking at all my babies ahead of me. I've really been loving all this time with all my babies. Every second I've been cherishing. We've just been enjoying each other presences and making memories. I think this is the first time I've had all of them together and I'm loving it. They've definitely been lifting my spirits and making me feel so good. I love my babies so much.

Once I paid for my things, we headed out and got all the bags loaded into the truck. When then headed back to the house so they could get ready. They all were going to this party with Rob. One of his nephews were having a birthday party and he wanted to get all the kids and take them. This was perfect because I actually have a therapy session to get to in a few hours. I'm so ready for that. I've been going through a lot these past few days and I just want to let that out.

"Soooo, do you guys think we are like dumb or what?"Mia questioned as she looked over at me.

"What?"I said glaring over at her before I focused back on the rode. I had no clue what she was talking about.

"You and Trey. Y'all have to know we peep he hasn't been home."

"Right."Kayla added. Hearing them I couldn't help to shake my head with a smirk. Their behinds are so nosy, it's a shame. Ofocurse I know they've noticed. Their not little kids and I'm pretty sure they can put two and two together. They just want me to tell them what happened.

"We just had a small dispute, but it's nothing you guys need to worry about. We're still good and together."I said, honestly not wanting them to trip. Yes, it been days and no Tremaine hasn't been at the house. But he's bringing his ass home, I promise you that. It's been days and I've let him breathe and have some time to himself, but I can't take it any longer. I miss my man and I've been sleeping terribly since he's been gone. If he don't be home by tonight, I'll be at Drew's house in the morning.

When we got home the kids didn't hesitate to start getting ready. I did as well. I decided to change into something a little more comfortable. Those clothes were too tight for me. While changing clothes I couldn't help to look at the big empty bedroom, missing my man. Lord knows I do. He hasn't been here to get on my nerves or make me laugh. Or to wake me up in the middle of the night when he can't sleep. I miss him. I called myself popping up at the gym this morning, but they told me he had just left. That saddened me because I know that man was really trying to dodge me and I hated it.