Why Should I Stay? (Rewritten)

1. Alec's Bad Side

If you had told me that on my birthday my life would change before my very eyes I wouldn’t have believed you. I would have laughed in your face if you told me all the myths and creatures of legend were true; that shadowhunters even existed. But now all of that is the reality of my life, it’s something I cannot escape. However, the truth of the matter is, it’s not necessarily a bad thing. I’m accomplishing things normal people could never dream of.

Like all relatively good things in life, it comes with hardships. My mother is gone, taken by someone powerful named Valentine.. and I will get her back no matter what it takes.On top of that, I’ve lost almost everything I have ever known. But in doing so, I’ve also gained a new family of sorts and knowledge about myself I don’t know if I would have had without the recent events.

So many things have happened. I’ve met Alec, Jace and Isabelle. The three of them have helped me so much. Some more warm hearted than others but the thought is still there. They helped me get Simon back from the vampires just yesterday, and they’re actively helping me look for my mom. I couldn’t ask for better company to have with me through all of this. I mean Alec could use some work but for the most part his stoic attitude is tolerable.

I’m so lost in my thoughts walking through these corridors filled with historic elements but my feet bring me to one place, my sanctuary. I look around me at all the books, the portal doors, the old weaponry in glass cases. It’s all so beautiful to me. That’s why I come in here, it’s a happy place for me to sketch runes and other things. The room is filled with endless things to draw. I walk over to my little corner where my comfy armchair is and reach under it to grab my sketchbook and pencils from my secret nook.

I decide to draw every rune that pops into my head and add my own flourish to them. My eyes growing tired, I look up at the clock above the door and see hours had passed since I came in here. I gasp and quickly shut my sketchbook and put it securely back under the chair, making sure it’s unnoticed to anyone that looks at it by using an invisibility rune. After that is secure I quickly walk towards the infirmary where Simon’s been resting.

I had planned to only be in the library for a short while then visit Simon for the day, how did I get so caught up in my art? I turn the corner and see Alec walking towards me. His eyes are so unnaturally blue, it snaps me out of my rambling. His eyes are locked right on me, making me slow my pace. He stops me as I’m walking past him.

“Hey, Clary. Can I talk to you?” I turn towards him. “Uh, yeah. I was just gonna go see Simon.”

“I want you to leave here.”

I was instantly defensive, “What?”

“You almost got us killed.”

“I’m sorry we didn’t have a choice. I mean, we had to save Simon, and Jace - “

“Jace thinks he needs to save the world. But you don’t need to encourage him to do it.” I can’t believe he’s trying to pin this all on me, as if it’s my fault!

“But that’s what you guys do.”

He was quick to speak back.“Yes, us. What we do. We’re a team, you’re deadweight. A mundane-”

“I’m not a mundane!” I’m filled with frustration as I open my mouth to speak. “And if you were half as brave as you pretend to be you’d admit that- ”

“What?”

“You’d admit that you’re in love with Jace, and that’s what this is really about.”

I knew I shouldn’t have crossed that line and that was made even more apparent as his eyes filled with rage. Within seconds his hand was around my throat and I was roughly pushed back against the wall. A gasp flew out of my throat and my rage was replaced with fear and regret.

“If you ever say anything like that again… I’ll kill you.”

At that point I was hyperventilating slightly as he looked dead into my eyes when he spoke. He released me and my hand went up to my throat as I watched him turn away and leave. When he turned the corner I stood there for a few minutes trying to wrap my head around what just happened.

After my breathing was back to normal, I continued walking to the infirmary, my head still spinning. When I walked into the room, Simon looked over with a smile on his face that instantly dropped. “Hey, are you okay?”

I went to respond and then everything started going dark. I felt myself falling through the air as I waited for the impact of the floor to come. Simon yelling my name was the last thing I heard before everything went pitch black. The impact never came.

HEY GUYS!! SURPRISE! You guys wanted the first chapter so I thought it was the least I could do after not writing for so long.

SIDE NOTE- CHECK OUT MY OTHER STORY THE UNKNOWN BEAST.