Fault of being Reticent

Chapter 10 : Hurt and pain together

                           Dedicated to prettymiss22

I helplessly and silently occupied my place back on the couch with tears in my eyes. After wiping them with the back of my hands and drinking water that was placed on the table beside the food bag i felt little relieved.

I did not have the courage to face him anymore. All I wanted was to get away from that suffocating room and from him as soon as possible. It was a bitter and harsh feeling being with him in the same room.

Be strong Ana please don't cry now. You have to be strong.

I muttered these words to myself yes I had to be strong, at least i could try to be. My conscience encouraged me after all what choice did i have?

I opened the file and started checking it just to avoid him and his presence but it was not that easy. Never in my life I was this uncomfortable with the person I always thought of being comfortable for the rest of my life. I still don't understand what wrong did I do to him? I glued my eyes on the file and pretended hard to work but deep down i knew i won't be able to hold it for long as it seemed completely impossible to do. I couldn't concentrate on my work when there were so many things running in my mind.

I hesitantly opened my mouth, "Sir, do you mind if I go use washroom?", I requested swallowing hard in a nervous tone.

"Don't be late", he warned.

I got up from the couch and started heading toward the door, "Ms.Ana where the hell are you going?".

What kind of question was that? He permitted me didn't he? I turned around, "Sir, I asked if I can use washroom or not?".

"Yeah, so?", he raised a brow at me. What the hell was his problem? He said yes didn't he?

"So, I am going to use it", I said annoyingly.

"Going where?".

What was he trying to ask or do?

"To use ladies washroom? out there at the end of the lobby", I said never making any eye contact with him.

"As you can see this is a very big office and it must have washroom in it. There is no point of wasting time going out there when you can use mine", he said proudly looking around his office.

This was absurd why was he behaving like that. I looked at him and then towards the way where his eye rotated. A white door probably his washroom. I felt uncomfortable and weird because I needed some time to recollect myself or i should say i required time to cry inside the washroom where no one could hear or judge me.

"Uhmm I appreciate it sir but i don't think using your washroom will be appropriate---Uhmm i mean you are the BOSS how can an under-training employee use it?", I tried to sound reasonable but I knew it very well that the useless excuse which I gave him would only lead me into looking stupid. But it can happen right?

"Oh, I got it now", he said sarcastically looking at me from head to toe. Now what did I do? "Do you think I am fool sitting over here??", he snapped at me. The way he said that sent an alarming signal to my conscious mind of getting ready for more humiliations.

"Sir? Uhm i-".

"You think that going there will save you from the work?"

"What?"

"Its only a week here and you have already started running from your work?".

"Running? what are you saying?", I ask in a quizzical tone.