Little Things Jordi Whitworth/Overload

Chapter Five

~~~~~~~~~~ Bella's P.O.V ~~~~~~~~~~

I didn't realise I was crying until I felt a hand on my shoulder. I spun around in confusion of who it might be and a policeman and woman was stood behind me. The policewoman asked if i was okay as I was crying I just wiped my tears away and responded with "yeah I just had a bit of a argument with my all time bestfriend as he thought I was flirting with his bandmate". "Ahh I see why dont we take a seat inside and you can talk to us if you wish?" "um okay but why are you even at my house in the first place" The policeman butted in before the woman could drop any hints he said "We will discuss that when we are inside but you may want to be seated and if you want I could make you a cuppa aswell to ease the nerves" I was a bit confused that the police was here but my mum wasnt home yet so that made me a little bit more worried because I have never really talked to the police on my own since I was 13 as I was troublesom teen but Joey was the one which turned me around which brought us to closer. I would always be grafitting on something or setting a building alight until Joey said something that stuck with me and that was if you don't stop doing this then I will stop talking to you unless you have stopped. I will help you stop but only if you give me 110% effort. Back then if the police was at my door then I'd give them cheek and just be quite rude to them and since I was put in jail over night for setting the school on fire I have been quite scared of policemen. I got snapped out of my flashback with the policewoman handing me a cuppa, I took it gratefully and sat on my bubble chair which was attached to the living room celing. I explained everything to the police with what happened between me and Joey and how he is jealous of me and Jordi being friends that made me bring up that I left him in his garden falling apart but the boys will probably look after him but no doubt he will blame it on Jordi. The policeman said if I give them his address then they will go over there and check up on him for me. I wrote down the address on a bit of paper and handed it to the policewoman as I trusted her a bit more than him because he was the one that arrested me when I burnt the school down and she has probably been through the same as what I'm going through now and will understand a bit more. I looked at Jim and said "Why are you here, acctually Jim we will wait for my parents to get home then you can talk to them about as I dont wanna speak to you and whatever if is I havent burnt anything down or touched spray paint since you last arrested me so I dont wanna talk to you quite frankly" I went to walk out the room when Jim Brass shut the door and said "I understand you dont want to talk to me but we want to talk to you about your parents but if you dont want to talk to me I will go over and check on Joey but please talk to Catherine Willows and Sarah Sidle" and with that another female cop walked in. "Wow well done Jim you caught on that I dont wanna talk to you but I will happily talk to theese lovely ladies" i know that I had gotten under Jim's skin but that's coz i remind him of his daughter Ellie Rebbecca Brass haha that put a thought in my head to really get to him I looked up and just as Jim was about to walk out the door I said "Hey Jim hold on a sec" "Yeah Bella" I had a evil smirk on my face and he just looked down and I said "Spoken to Ellie lately" "dont tempt me to put you back in a cell" and with that he walked out and I started laughing hystericly. The blond cop put her hand out and said "i'm Catherine Willows and i'm with the police department and this is my college Sarah Sidel". Okay now im worried it has went extremly serious and tense in the room. sarah looked at me and said "do you have a picture of you parents anywhere round the house at all?" I ran up to my room and dragged a shoebox out from under my bed. I saved them from when my parents split up and mum was throwing out pictures and she asked if i could throw them away but I kept them. They got back together a month later then we moved back here to start over. I gave the box to sarah and she found one of my dad and mum on their wedding day she then took Catherine out in the hallway and then came back in and dragged me to the sofa and i sat inbetween Catherine and Sarah. They both put there hands on my shoulders which I thought was a bit wierd. Catherine looked me straight in my eyes and said "I'm sorry for your loss but your parents died in a car crash i'm so sorry" I didnt know what to do I was just frozen in my spot i had to remember how to breath again then it hit me I was a 17 year old living in a three bedroom house on my own, I was a only child I couldn't contain myself any more I just ran past Catherine and Sarah and to my parents room and climbed on their bed and just cried and smelled the sweet scent of my mothers perfume in the pillow then I rolled over and even though I have been giving my dad the silent treatment for the past couple of weeks I felt bad and i missed him so I just got out his favourite AC/DC t-shirt and held it to my chest. I dont know what to do anymore as the only friends that i'm still in contact with from school is Joey and i'm not speaking to him and i don't have Jordi's or Ryan's numbers so I cant talk to them. I ended up falling asleep curled up on mum's side of the bed hugging dads t-shirt. I got woken up by a knocking at the bedroom door. It was only sarah. I let her in to talk to me. I guess Catherine has went home. Sarah came and sat on the end of the bed and talked to me camly with her soft voice, it was quite soothing "I know what your feeling, my parents put me in care when I was 12 and i can remember screaming for mum not to leave me but she didn't care, I managed to track her down when i joined the police force and i went over to see her but she didnt want anything to do with me and when i drove home I just cried all I wanted to do was be loved and I was a only child just like you so i know what it's like to have no-one to turn to but i'm here if you wanna talk" she handed me her number and i saved it to my phone and i looked up at her with fierce eyes and my teenage rebal took over once again and i snaped at her i didnt mean to but i did I said " you dont know what it's like to have both parents die in a car crash your mum gave you up yes it hurt but you could go and see her if you wished i can guarentee she still loves you but with me I cant see my mum and i never will all i have is memories and pictures so you dont know what im going through now if you dont mind please get out of my parents room please" when i got to the end of the speach my voice started cracking and i was crying again. I thought Sarah was leaving but she got up off the bed and came and hugged me i hated it because i dont know her but i liked it coz if i close my eyes i can imagine that mum is back but when i open my eyes she's gone and always will be. Sarah took her arms away from me and said that she had to go back down to the station. She left me bewildered and in shock my mum had left me and so has my dad i dont know what im gunna do anymore, who is gunna pay the rent and the bills I will get kicked out of my house and then they will touch mum's stuff and put it in boxes. There is only one person that will understand me right now and that is Joey. I got out my phone when i knew i'd be able to talk and i rung Joey. I just gotta hope that he picks up.