Well it's only two days until i finally get out the hospital and I can't wait to see David! Kevin got out of jail and visited me today he felt to bad and handed me some flowers, The rest of the guys knew to all except for David and my friends so it was weird and yet good cause i wanted to tell them for myself. It's a good day for me today because Nick finally went back to jail and i don't have to worry anymore. I can't wait to just be free again and just hang with my friends and david. I really want to thank him for being there when Nick wasn't. He means the world to me now and i would do anything to protect David. He is one and a million to me and i love him for being such a good friend. That kiss was my favorite thing about him. He has so much potienal and so much faith in himself to me and a guy who has all of that deserves a big prize. I want to make it up to him but i still need time to think about what I want to do for him when I get out of here. You know leaving this hospital will be a life changing experience for me and i hope that i can make my life way better now that i have love all around instead of hate. Hopefully Nick stay's in jail for as long as time because what he did was never suppose to happen to me and i know that. He is never to be trusted again and I beg on my knees that he does not get out anytime soon to kill me again. This is my last time to get all my advice and lessons that i learned formmy parents when i was wyounger together and i choose today and tomorrow to do so. This will be a start of a new life for a girl named courtney s. richards and the new life for her own natural born ways. This time i will watch out for who i trust and believe that i can do anything and everything if i put my mind to it and work hard enough. David i will come meet you with a big reward and promise to never fail in loving a guy like you, you are my bright light and you have a lot to be happy for. This time i will heal correctly and no more pain and cuts it's all about trust and being protected by god for me. i hope we get our chance to be together.
