You and All The Regrets

Chapter 5

After our small talk, we parted ways and I went down the hall to the English classroom since I was having Literature. I went to the classroom, sat down, and didn't really notice the people in my class.

Suddenly, out of nowhere, someone behind me leaned in closer, patted my shoulder and whispered;

"Hey, didn't you notice me?"

I turned my back, taken aback by the action and saw Jungkook.

"Oh, hey! Sorry, I don't really look around in my new classes because I tend to avoid eye contact"

He rushed over and sat next to me.

"Oh, haha, no it's fine... Hey, not to stick my nose around in other peoples business, but can I ask what you and Jimin were talking about?"

"Oh, nothing specific really, we just needed to catch up on some stuff from the past... But do you two already know each other?"

He was quiet for a bit but then smirked weirdly and answered;

"No, not really. I've seen him here and there, but we don't really know each other nor talked in person"

I nodded, but before we could continue our conversation, the teacher came in. She wrote her name on the board, introduced herself as 'Mrs. Meyers'.

We didn't really do anything in this first Literature class, Mrs. Meyers only went through what her plan of teaching out for this year was. So this class period wasn't long, we got dismissed earlier than what we should've.
I hurried and got my bag to find Nicole, but as I was on my way, I heard Jungkook call my name out.

"Hey! Y/N!"

He said and panted.

"I've been trying to catch up to you, but you walk fast!"

"Oh, hi! Haha I'm sorry, I didn't hear you"

He laughed and said that it's fine.

"Where are you going?"

"Trying to find my friend Nicole"

He laughed.

"Walking around? They didn't create phones for nothing"

I was about to reply to him, but he looked up and hurriedly continued to speak.

"Uh-m, anyway, I gotta go, my friends are waiting for me now, it's lunch time! I'll see you around, Y/N!"

He said, turned around, waved and started to walk faster.
I was confused at his actions but looked up only to see Jimin standing there, staring at me.
When he saw me looking at him, he quickly smiled and walked up to me. For some reason, my body got really tensed up.

"Hey!"

I was taken back at the fact that he wasn't pulling a joke on me, since that's what I expected him to do.

"H-hi, what's up?"

"Nothing much, just got out of class, and you?"

"Oh I'm having lunch break, I think everyone is..."

His eyes widened and I could've sworn I saw him smiling.

"Oh really? Then... Is it okay with you if we have that talk now?"

We stared at each other for a couple of seconds, but I broke the eye contact because I kept getting tense.

"Yeah, sure... Uhm, the backyard of the school is quite nice, we could walk around there, I don't think there are a lot of people there since it's the first day, you know"

He smiled at first, and God bless the heavens was he cute. But there was no way in hell I would admit that out loud.

"Why? Scared people will see you walking around with such a handsome face?"

I immediately facepalmed. What did I see in this guy?

"Are you implying I'm ugly?!!"

He laughed and shook his head.

Why was he affecting my feelings this much?

We walked outside to the backyard together, and there were couples and friends sitting and standing here and there, but not too many.

There was an awkward silence between me and Jimin, and I decided to break it.

"So.... about that 'thing'-"

"Do we really have to call it 'thing' though? Let's just call it 'incident'. It sounds better"

Seeing Jimin serious was actually quite scary. But I went along with it.
Either way, he continued speaking.

"Anyway, do you want to start telling your part of the story?"

I mean, better now than later.
I told him my view of what happened and how I felt under it all, and when I finished, he looked up at the sky, shrugging his shoulders a bit.
He was silent for a bit and we walked slower.

"...Hey, I'm sorry... I knew it would affect you, but I didn't know it would affect you that much"

"Oh yes, because you know I'm heartless and don't have any feelings"

I joked around and he smirked a bit.

"It wouldn't surprise me"

He said and laughed at me, I lightly pushed him on the shoulder a bit.

After that, he became serious again.

"We still have time right? I'll tell my part now"

And I let him speak.

"That day... I noticed, you know? You dressed up, and even got your hair fixed in a nice way-"

He said made hand movements above his own hair to get a better description. But then put them down in his pockets again.

"-...I didn't want things to turn out the way they did-"

"-You know you're not really telling why you did what you did"

I cut him off. He giggled a bit and apologized, but continued.

"Just let me speak, I'll get there.
Anyway, the thing is, I didn't mean for you to get hurt, nor for us to drift apart like we did, I didn't want to do it. I wasn't enjoying a single moment of it. If I could, I'd go back and undo every single thing, but I can't"

I could hear the sadness in his voice, but still didn't say anything, he listened to me when I was speaking, the least I could do was listen to him.

"That's also why we decided to move. My mother noticed I didn't feel good mentally anymore. Sure, I had a few other friends here and there other than you, but I was the closest to you. Even at such a young age, it tugged at my heart.
I never wanted to harm you or hurt you in any shape or form. I know it's gonna sound stupid, but I thought you wouldn't take it seriously, I thought you'd shrug it off within some time and then we'd be back to normal, but of course I was wrong.
I mean, honestly, even the reason for doing it was simply stupid. But I was was a kid, and of course I was scared.
But, Y/N, I really do apologize for that event"

He became quiet, and I assumed it was my turn to speak.

"But... Hey, you still never told me why"

He looked at me.

"Oh? Right, yeah... why I did it was because...-"

A/N: Lmao yes I love my cliffhangers😂