It Was Only Ever You B.W.S

Chapter 5

James gestured for me to have a seat on the bed so I do "What's going on Iz?" Connor says to me I look from him to Tristan and then to James "How after all these years does he still affect me like he does?" "What are you talking about?"

James says to me "Brad, I ran into him again at the coffee shop, he told me he still cared about me and wanted to be friends. How could he ever think I could just be his friend? How could he think it would be okay for him to tell me he still cared about me?

I needed him to care four years ago and he didn't he broke me." "He never stopped caring about you Izzy." Tristan says "Yes he did because he was suppoed to come after me he was supposed to love me back the way I loved him and he didn't."

"Yes he did Izzy he was an idiot and he knew he was." "It doesn't matter now because I have moved on. I don't want to talk about this I just want to go do something fun." I say to them they all smile at me "We were planning on going to the paintball field today do you wanna come?"

I smile at them and nod my head at them "I think that is a great idea I really just need to clear my mind." There were plenty of people there so all four of us ended up on the same team. The course was big there were old buildings we could hide in it reminded me of a video game.

They yelled for us to start and the four of us stayed together, we all hid behind some walls and we started shooting the other team. James would curse every time he missed someone and we would laugh at him.

As we were running around the corner of a building someone came out from one of the open doors and tackles me to the ground. "What the hell!" I yell and I hear someone laughing, we both stand up and I know who it is.

I smirk at Brad as I shot him with a paintball and he is now out, the other boys start laughing and we take off again around the building. The time was almost up and we only had a few left of the other team to shoot. Tristan had already gotten out so it was just James, Connor and I left, I got shot running to a different wall so I went and met up with Tris.

We watched as the rest of our team tried to take out the rest of the other team. The time was up and everyone else left in the game came out. Our team had more players left at the end so we won. "That was great." I say to them and everyone else agrees.

"Ello boys." Brad says as he comes over "What are you doing here Brad?" Connor asks him "Joe told me yall were coming here so I decided to come too." He looks at me and smirks and I roll my eyes at him. "What are you all going to do now?" 

"We were just going to go have a bite to eat." Tris says "Oh well I'm starving so I will come along too." I look at them and they are all looking at me, I look from James, to Tris, to Connor ad they all shrug their shoulders.

"Fine whatever." I say to them we leave and head to the pizza place down the street. Brad sat next to me and I was now getting frustrated with him. "You boys remember that time we snuck into the skate park?" 

Brad says thinking about those times seemed so long ago, but they were some of the best times we all had together. I was lost in thought thinking about all the great memories we had together. All the stupid things we did to and it made me smile, I thought about how good my relationship with Brad was then.

How I wish I could go back to that time and relive those moments over again. I wish things had been different and maybe we would still be together, How could he just throw all of that away? I had so many questions but I didn't want to know his answer. 

Thinking about this hurt which is why I had it locked away all these years, now here he is and all this stuff is coming back and I just want it to go away. Why did I leave that day? Why didn't he come after me?

Why? Why? Why? That was the question "Izzy are you okay?" Someone put there hand on my knee and I came out of my thoughts. I hadn't realized that I was crying, why was I crying? I looked at the boys they were just staring at me.

I couldn't break down right here not in front of Brad, "Izzy?" I look over at Brad "Um I will just be right back." I say to them as I get up and go to the bathroom, I went into a stall and I sat on the toilet and cried silently.

I was mad at myself for crying over this it had been four years, why does it still affect me like it does? I opened the door to the stall and went to the sink, I wet my face with water and I took a deep breath and walked out the restroom.

Brad grabs my arm as I walk out "Izzy what's wrong?" "Nothing." "Come one Izzy you can't tell me that was nothing." "Actually Brad I can and that is exactly what I am going to do. It was nothing that you need to be worried about." 

"That's bullshit." I started to walk away from him but he grabbed my arm again. "Stop walking away from me Izzy, stop pretending that you don't still love me, stop pretending like I mean nothing to you because it's all bullshit." 

I pull my arm from him "No Brad you stop acting like you care about me." I started to cry again and I run out of the pizza place.