he likes her and i will get over it. it doesn't matter anymore. i would rather have a stone cold heart them have a broken one. i learned i will never be good enough... i have known for a while now.
everyone around me has someone. i don't. everyone has a person who cares so deeply about them it would hurt if they left to soon. i don't and i'm starting to lose hope i ever will.
my sister, my best friends, hell even the teachers have each. i have no one. i am coming to except my fate.
life is just another we procrastinate, like everything else. let's be honest you don't care that everyday, with every breath you take you are one gulp of air closer to death. nothing matters anymore.
my train of thought is lost, but isn't always? he like everyone else will choose her. she is prettier, smarter, and more put together then i will ever be.
i am so tired of being alone. i hate it. people leave me to my thoughts and my thoughts are worse then anything. full of self hate and self harming tendencies. do i seem fine to others?
i don't fall apart infront of people because i don't need to drag others into my problems. dragging people into my problems is introducing all sorts of trust that i can't give.
trust is a weird thing. like i will tell you my darkest secret as long as you promise not to tell anyone. it basically pathetic. not having feels would be amazing.
not having to worry about disappointing my family or about hurting people. god, that would be a nice change.
