falling ☼ Anthony Ramos // [#wattys2017]

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tw: depression + suicide (warning will be placed, continue reading)

Anthony laughs as he sets the plates on the table. Alla turns around and looks up at Anthony. "This is a pretty great second date you know?" Anthony says as he makes his way towards Alla and sits next to her.

"Well don't you think this is more like our third date?" "Well, the first one doesn't count we were drunk. And I didn't technically ask you out."

"Well, you came home with me so we can call it our unofficial first date."

"Okay, now shush and eat your food," Anthony says while feeding her. She rolls her eyes but plays along anyway.

After having breakfast, they both cleaned up and sat down on the couch. She rested her head on his shoulder and he put his arm around her.

They both sit there, staring at the television. Alla occasionally giggles like a child, and Anthony occasionally stares down at her head and smiles.

Alla looks up at him and catches him staring at him. She rolls her eyes. "Anthony?" "Hm?"

"Do you believe in love at first sight? Or just love in general?"

"Why do you ask that?" "Just answer the question lover boy." She stares quietly into his eyes.

"I do believe in love. I believe that love is something important. Although I know this sounds cheesey, but every girl I dated, I thought that each of them were the one. It's taken me some time to get to know someone so well, and I've never had someone make me feel so nervous but so good at the same time."

Alla stayed silent for a little bit. She then finally speaks up, "I had that once."

Anthony looked a little confused. "Okay please save all questions until the end? It was my freshman year in collage. On the second day I met Adalyn. She was just so incredible. She was one of my first friends at MUA. We had really hit it off. I though she was my soulmate. After two weeks I asked her out and she said yes." Alla kept staring into his eyes, he seemed disappointed but let you continue with your story.

"So basically we dated for two years. And all was great until one day she ignores me. For the entire day. She wouldn't call or text me. I was very worried. But who wouldn't be? Their girlfriend stops talking to them? What kind of person does that to another, Anthony?"

Tears build up in her eyes. She was in pain, remembering these past events, he wiped the tears from her face.

"I then assumed that it had something to do with her mom. Because her mom hated me. She hated that her Jewish daughter was dating a Catholic girl. I met her dad, and he was completely fine with it. He supported us and was happy that his daughter found happiness. We both would talk about the future. The future together, about how we would travel and adopt kids, maybe even have them."

Anthony seemed very sympathetic towards Alla. He had seen that Adalyn definitely hurt Alla with her actions.

tw: suicide + depression (start)

"I went home that day destroyed, I was a complete wreck. My other friends would bring me home any assignments I needed, but I would not come out of my room. I was diagnosed with depression a few months later, hell, I attempted suicide not once but three times." Tears began forming in Anthony's eyes. Alla then got up from where she was sitting and pulled down her pants to reveal the scars on her thighs. "I had completely forgotten about these when we had sex and when we went out the second time. Well I guess the first time was because we both were drunk." She shrugged.

Anthony stared and looked at Alla for permission. She bit her lip and gave him a slight nod. Anthony placed his fingers on her scars and traced them with his fingers. He then looked up at her.

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He wondered how someone so beautiful, pure, and sweet could have such a sad past?

"Anthony, you make me feel the way Ada made me feel. It terrifies me, I haven't felt like this in such a long time. I've been broken and I don't think I can handle it again. So, Anthony I need to know if you're willing to love someone as hopeless and depressed as me."

"Alla, I haven't fallen in love with you." Anthony paused and looked at Alla's face. Red of embarrassment, for telling Anthony everything about her, and regret while her eyes began to water once again. He got up from the couch, held Alla's hands and looked deeply into her eyes.

"Because to say that I've fallen in love with you is saying that it's in the past. And I know we met two days ago but I continue falling for you, deeper and deeper. I fall in love with every glance you give me and every smile that gets plastered onto your face. Every quirk and every moment you speak make me fall in love with you more. Every time we touch or every second that you spend with me drives me crazy in love."

At this point they both have tears fall from their face, Alla wipes her tears away before placing her head onto Anthony's chest.

"Anthony I'm afraid of getting hurt." "I know you are and I will do everything I can to prevent you from feeling pain."

"Anthony?" "Hm?" "I'm in love with you."