Treat You Better Pt. 2 { S.M }

Thoughts [ Chapter 5 ]

Petra's POV:

I hung up on the facetime, I can't listen to his voice, to his words. It makes break my heart. I know that I was the one who broke up but I regretted it after 1 second but I also know that it's hard now but it's better for our future. He will find someone who can be there for him and won't hurt him like me. And if I will find someone...? I think no. I think he was the love of my life and I let him go. I want the best for him I can't be selfish.

The next day morning

I woke up with red and hurt eyes. I went downstairs in the kitchen. Elena was already awake and she was making breakfast for us so I asked her if she needs my help.

" Is everything ok?" - she asked not looking at me.

" Yeah why?" - I said while I was doing pancakes.

" Because I thought I was hearing you crying last night" - she raised one eyebrow.

" Oh yeah I watched Marly and me last night I always cry" - I lied and let out a little laugh.

" Oh okay if you say so"- she turned away from my direction.

After the breakfast I just went back into my room and sat on my bed listening to music. I thought about my life. Shawn, Hellen and the new school I will go to after the summer break. Will I ever find someone who I love more than Shawn? Will it ever be possible? He know everything about me. Every bad habit I have and he still loves me. He loves ME. And I threw it away. I think the worst decision in my life that I've ever made but why am I always only thinking about it like normal girls worry about their hairs or nails and me? I'm sitting in my room and think about Shawn. EVERYDAY. I have to go out or just do something but I have no friends here ... I could ask Cameron but I don't want to annoy him with my problems. I could just facetime Hellen and then go out with her but then I would already be the crazy new girl without friends. Or I just stay in my bed and watch youtube all day and try to think about something else...

I also thought about uploading a new cover but i don't know which song i should sing so i will do it later.

I grabbed my phone and went on instagram. It's been a while since I went online because I couldn't see all this posts about Shawn and read the comments about us. I mean my fans are really sweet and they just want to know the truth but I don't want to say it loud. And I don't want to see his fucking perfect face neither so I decided not to go online. But now I'm bored and I'm heartbroken anyway so why shouldn't I stalk him? I mean it can't be harder but I want to know what's going on in his life.

I also stalked his feed and I noticed a girl who always likes and comments on his picture. Bitch. She is called Sofia. I have to FaceTime Hellen later and ask her what she know about her and maybe ask her for spying on her and him. I know what you think. Im crazy and its my own fault. And you know what ? You are right but c'mon every girl knows what I feel right now, don't you? I still love him and I didn't do what I did because I don't love him. I did it because it wouldn't work and I would hurt him so now it's only me hurting. I want the best for him but not Sofia. I want the best for him. Single.

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written on 17th July 2017

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HEYYY I PROMISED AND NOW HERE IT IS!! I know it's short but I wanted to upload because so many of you have been waiting for it! The next is coming soon with some Shawn POV's 😏❤️ well anyway i hope you liked the