Poetry

sorry

i am sorry

to my best friend;

i am sorry that i can't go to your house anymore

i am sorry that you have to lie to your family when they ask why i haven't been around

i am sorry that my sadness swamps you 

i will understand if you do not want to be more friend anymore.

i am sorry

to my mother,

i am sorry for shouting at you. i am sorry that you took down the photos of me in your bedroom.

i am sorry for my words in anger and i am sorry that i never allowed you to have bad days when

you accepted that my life was a hurricane firing out hatred

i am sorry that i never watched films with you 

i am sorry that i lied when i said i would never grow up.

i am sorry

to my dog,

i know you wonder why i don't take you on long walks anymore;

i am sorry that i am too tired.

i am sorry that i sometimes forget to feed you when i am sad

but the sadness attacks my bones and i am too busy picking up shards of glass to remember 

that 

you must eat

thank you for always loving me. thank you for not leaving.

you are precious.

i am sorry

to my brother,

i have noticed you stopped having friends around. i am sorry if i held you back.

i am sorry that you seem to be sad too.

i know how that feels.

i am sorry that mum is too busy trying to get me out of my room to realise you never leave 

yours.

i hope that my shaded footprints do not stop you from enjoying your journey

thank you for the times you cheer me up.

thank you.

i am sorry.