"Wait you're the Y/N everyone talks about? Everyone says that you're so quiet and timid like a nerd."
"What can I say? I like to challenge stereotypes." I turn my back towards them and close the door behind me.
...
After closing the door behind me, I make my way to my table and slouched onto my chair. I take a deep breath as I rub my temples with my index and middle fingers. Don't get me wrong, I love this job and all but I'm not thrilled that I have to 'collect' information about myself and write about it. Also I'm not a narcissist so I tend to show through the writing process that I have something against Ryder but of course no one knows I'm writing about myself. Maybe if someone else was in my shoes they would probably put themselves on a pedestal and write highly about themselves to make them look so appealing to the public eye but why would I do that? That's just stupid. I don't need an ego boost nor some kind of validation from people I've never had a genuine conversation with.
I pulled out the side of the cabinet drawer out and reached down for my headphones. Thank god it's wireless so the moment I put them on, they automatically started playing music. Since the company requires everyone to know their specific person they are to write about, Mr. Jauregui believes it would be the best if everyone listens to their designated artist's songs to understand more than just rumours or photos of them, to really 'connect with them on a spiritual level.' Mr. Jauregui words, not mine.
As for Ryder Knowles Carter, I haven't created any music but I've covered many songs on my YouTube channel. So I listen to my mum's songs that range from the Destiny's Child era to this day onward. I can appreciate my mum's songs lyrically anyways so who cares if the song was made in 1999 because let me tell you my mum's songs are amazing. I am not saying that just because she's my mum. Her songs are empowering for women of colour and can allow others to relate a song that isn't just for 'white' people. Though I've got to say with all the inspiration from mum's success in the music business with the type pf music she releases, I'm low key in the works of an album at the moment so let's see how that goes.
Humming and tapping the table to Say My Name by Destiny's Child calms me down and I start looking through social media about other outlets that have covered me. I like to read them because some of the things people say like me dating rappers or basketball players make me laugh. I know for sure that I'm single and there is no way I have time for a relationship.
I begin typing away some information, telling the world that Ryder is currently in the studio and that the album would most likely be released in five months. I feel someone tap on my shoulder constantly and turn to see Lilly all giddy. Damn girl, did that coffee really wake her up that much? Lilly slaps my arm but continues to be super happy.
"Okay Lilly please breathe because I don't think I need you to pass out like the last time." I said, putting my hands on her shoulders to calm her down. Lilly nodded and took a massive deep breath.
"whydidntyoutellmethatfifthharmonyareinthebuildingomgomgomgomgomg!" she said in one breath. I continued to stare at her in confusion and Lilly once again slaps me and this time it actually hurt. Before I could protest, the girls came out of Mr. Jauregui's office and Lilly looked like she was about to pass out so I wrapped her arm around my shoulder so I could hold her up.
"Hey girls, you done talking to Mr. Jauregui?" the girls nodded and Dinah squealed causing a chain reaction for Lilly to scream and jump into Dinah's arms. Okay there is definitely something I'm missing here. After the little reunion, Lilly began hugging all of them and slapped me again.
"Okay seriously why are you so active and abusive? Is this what I get for getting you coffee?" I said, pretending to cry. Lilly rolled her eyes and slapped me again.
"No you dummy. You didn't tell me that Fifth Harmony was coming!" Lilly said repetitively shaking me. I gave her a confused look and she stopped, giving me the 'you have got to be kidding me' look. I swear if looks could kill, I'd be dead at this instant.
"I'm Y/N and you are?" I said, putting my hand out to the short girl who got harassed this morning.
"Allyson but call me Ally." she smiled pulling my hand into a hug. After releasing me from her arms I look at Lilly and she still looks mad at me for some reason.
"I now know all their names. Ally, Normani, DJ and Lauren." I said as I pointed them out to my friend. Now she gave me the confused look at and the rest of the girls started to laugh. Let me tell you that Lauren's laugh was like honey because her laugh was soothing to my ears. Seriously what is happening to me today? Y/N you got to stop thinking about her, you don't even know if she swings that way.
"So you're on first basis nicknames with Dinah and know the names of the other girls but you seriously don't knowwho they are?" I begin the think and looking at the girl's faces, it finally sparked a thought in me.
"Aren't you the girls who made that song Down featuring Gucci Mane?" as I did the hand movements the girls giggled and nodded. I slowly turn to Lilly and my lips formed an O shape. I remember Lilly always being obsessed with the girl's songs and them in general so I guess I can forgive her for all the slapping. She was just giving the a reaction of any hardcore fan would.
"How did you not recognise them straight away Y/N?! You're making me look bad in front of these girls for having you as a friend." Lilly said the last part quieter but the girls were still able to hear, earning giggles from their direction. I pouted at Lilly, making sure that it will work with full effect.
"I'm dedicated to put my efforts with Ryder Knowles-Carter 24/7. I'm sowwy." pushing my bottom lip more than I usually would. Lilly groaned for two reasons, knowing that the pout had worked and that she knew that I had to write articles about myself for my job. When I mentioned Ryder, the girl's eyes lit up as if they had just seen my mum. As I turned my head, I alternated my eye brow raise out of habit and Normani and Dinah looked at me with amazement.
"Oh my god Y/N can do that eye brow thing like Ryder!" I stop my movements and give them a fake confused look like I had no clue what Normani and Dinah were on about. Of course I knew what they meant but I can't be revealing my identity to others. If I want to keep this life, then secrecy is how it is going to be.
Lauren immediately took out her phone and after a few seconds of scrolling through her massive folder of GIFs, she turned her phone and faced it to me. Looking at the GIF properly, I remembered the event. I had an interview on Ellen a few months back and she had asked me about my mum's rumoured song of dad cheating on her with 'Becky with the good hair'. I remember clearly that I was so confused about the situation because I knew no one that was called Becky and I guess the eye brow raise surfaced as my iconic look hence the GIF that is being shown to me.
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"I guess Ryder and I have more in common than I thought." I said, hearing Lilly snicker at my statement. Just looking at the girls it was very clear that they were fan girling over Ryder. Maybe I could freak them out a bit with the video I'll put up today with Blue by mentioning their names.
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